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Zubin Damania on Nondualism, Fasting, Consciousness, Podcasting, and Self-fulfilling beliefs
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Zubin Damanya is an American physician, an assistant professor, a comedian, and was the practicing hospitalist
at Stanford University School of Medicine for 10 years. He also runs ZDoggMD, which is a YouTube channel dedicated to exploring similar themes to this channel, so if you like these podcasts, there's a great chance that you'll like his, so check out the link in the description. The main point of convergence between us is consciousness. It's because of this that Zubin interviewed me live on his channel, but the conversation was so engrossing despite my lastitude initially that I'm placing it here for those of you interested in non-dualism, meditation, even fasting.
For those new to this channel, my name is Kurt Jaimungal. I'm a filmmaker with a background in mathematical physics dedicated to the explication of what are called theories of everything from a theoretical physics perspective, as well as the possible connection consciousness has to the fundamental laws of the universe, provided these laws exist at all and are knowable to us.
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Yeah, and are you going to leave this live stream up once it's done?
Yeah, and that way you have the kind of raw thing that's shitty, and then we have the really fancy produced version of either one of us puts out. Yeah, and again, just you decide. And the way I was thinking is like, we're talking to each other. So exactly. No one's interviewing the other. I'm all exactly talk about this. I'm a horrible interviewee. Trust me.
Hey, believe me, so am I. So it'll be a conversation. Let me do one thing here. So what I was thinking for the live, and you can tell me what your aesthetic is. By the way, I watched your whole fucking documentary, the two hour one. Oh, man. Holy shit. Hats off to you. It's experimental.
Oh, fuck yeah, it's off the rails. It's really fucking intense and crazy and awesome. And you said one thing, well, we should save it for the show. What I was thinking is I'll set it to speaker mode so that whoever's talking gets full screen, just because the 69 side by side is a little jankity for the live, I think. At some point I can put it side by side just to mix it up, but I don't know, what do you think? Just be in the moment.
It's fine. Leave it as the... I think it's called the speaker view. Yeah, speaker view. Yeah, that's perfect. That way it'll just go back and forth between us for the live, and then obviously you can do anything we like for the replay. All right, so we have all of this. We're recording. So you're recording your audio as well? Oh yeah, it's all on the same track. It's embedded in the video track, but I can always break it out. But you can break it out as well. I'll just share it by Dropbox with you.
Great. Now let me think if there's anything else. Okay, now, so the only other tricky thing, I do this all myself, so it gets a little... So we're going live to YouTube and Facebook. I've got it all teed up and I'm gonna share it on Locals as well. So let me do a few clicks here and then we'll just go live. What do you think? Yes, go ahead. I'm gonna let you introduce yourself if that's okay, because that'll just be the best. Yeah, yeah, yeah. All right, so we're gonna do publish.
All right. Theories of everything live. And then we're going to do... Oh, viewers are waiting. Look at that. Let's do... How do I make this work? I got to go to Castor. I got to turn on this. That's how we simulcast is using a company called Castor. The cheap solution to simulcast. There we go. So we're connecting to Facebook Live. Perfect. Let me make sure Facebook Live is where it is.
All right. And then I'm going to go live in a couple clicks here. So here we go. YouTube. Facebook. And let's see how this works, guys. Give it a second, and we'll see if we're live. It looks like we is on Facebook and YouTube. Give me a second here. Guys, welcome to the show. It's the ZDogg and Kurt show today. Kurt Geimengall, welcome, brother.
Thank you so much for having me on, man. I'm extremely glad to be here. Dude, this is a conversation I've been so excited to have. So from parts of my audience that don't know who Kurt is, I watch his videos on YouTube because he interviews the kind of people that I deeply care about hearing from. And he goes so deep. I'm talking about like the Donald Hoffman's, Bernardo Castrop's,
talking to Rupert Spira, which was a ridiculous like three or four hour conversation and I watched all of it and was just like this the whole time. Kurt is a documentary filmmaker and just a can you tell me a little bit about yourself brother? Yeah, I'm a filmmaker first and foremost.
with a background in math and physics and I've always been interested in what are called theories of everything which is a somewhat technical physics term though it's now in common parlance and it usually in the physical sciences means the unification of gravity with the standard model as well as an explanation for other phenomenon such as what is going on inside of a black hole which you think would be answered by a quantum theory of gravity but not necessarily what is the beginning of the universe there's differences as to what a theory of everything
Constitutes doesn't matter you get the vague you get the overview as for what I do with the channel as I explore those because I've always been interested in theories of everything and luckily I have some I have some mathematical and physics background so I can do so with a certain level of depth and I like to question as deep as I possibly can the guests that I speak to so some of them have been
They range from theoretical physicists to people who are espousers of the idea that consciousness is primary I Explore theoretical physics free will consciousness and God like God. Okay, that sounds like woo, but Depends on what the definition is That's the channel Do you guys see why I love him like like in a like want to marry him kind of way so this these are exactly the same things I'm interested in and what's that what's interesting Kurt is like
You know, I didn't have the physics and math background that you have, and I'm certainly not a documentary filmmaker. But, oh, damn it, hold on, let me turn off that noise. And also, don't be put off by the fact that I'm staring down at the laptop occasionally off at you and at the camera because I'm looking at people's comments, too. I'm impressed that you've set up your camera such that the eye line is aligned with me. So it looks like you're looking at me, whereas me, I'm pointed downward. Because the lens is up here.
It's one of those things that I've had to work on for a long time trying to figure it out. What's weird is it's actually off putting to people on Zoom who are used to Zoom culture where it's kind of like, hey, Kurt, how's it going? Yeah, things are good, right? And then suddenly you're getting this weird amounts of eye contact with a background that isn't a fake green screen Zoom background and people are just a little unnerved. Actually, this is something I wanted to ask you about because we can talk about the theories of everything stuff, which is important, this idea of
Is there a unifying structure and conceptual framework that we can understand everything with, or is it an infinite regress and that kind of thing? But even before that, what's interesting is since the pandemic started, this medium that we use has just exponentially blown up. Did you see your channel really getting more engagement post-pandemic?
It was started during the pandemic, we're not posted, but yes, there's a huge craving for discussions that are about the fundamental nature of reality, and perhaps that's because people are philosophically destabilized, they're in a mentally insecure place, and I know I am. Lubricous ground with regard to belief, at least for me. It's variable in a straddle.
And so people are perhaps looking for certainty and that's why they come to these channels. Though if you're looking for any answers, I assure you I have virtually none and the answer to almost any question that Zubin poses to me will be met with a dubious, I don't know, like I'm dubious about my own dubiousness even. That dubiousness about our own dubiousness is this kind of meta-awareness or
It's the fundamental belief about belief that everything needs to be kind of questioned, even our dearest held, deepest and most hidden beliefs, actually, I think, to draw into them and go, okay, but what if this was not true? And actually, what's present now in my experience in what I can actually detect now that supports or refutes this belief? Even it may be a simple belief like, you know, this piece of ZDoggMD signs the crap out of it merchandise, which
I would feel like I'm shilling, but we don't sell it anymore, is separate from me in some ways, a separate object in space and time that space and time are real and these kind of things. And actually, the more you start to examine those beliefs and actually use the immediate experience, the sensory experience of this moment as a guide, you really start to destabilize some of those beliefs that
and bringing it back to what you were talking about with the pandemic, I found the same thing. I think people are really fundamentally shook by the fact that society is nothing as stable as they thought it was, that we're actually in an incredibly fragile interconnected world, that a blockage in the Suez Canal ripples out and causes my inability to wipe my ass with toilet paper.
which apparently is a near and dear need for the Western person, so much so that they hoard it when the pandemic starts. So this destabilization, I think, has forced some degree of introspection that's been a long time coming. Have you found the same thing in your extensive pandemic travels online? Yeah, and conversely, you just mentioned a disadvantage because you're connected to what's extremely outside you, or seemingly so. But there's also some
It's also inspirational in a sense because it means that your loving nature to the degree that you express it and your truth-telling ability or at least I would say it's more important to not lie. Peterson has this rule about tell the truth or at least not lie. I would flip that and say don't lie instead of telling the truth because it's extremely easy to delude yourself into thinking what you're doing is truth-telling when actually you're
You're trying to win an intellectual battle or show how truth-telling you are by saying to someone a mean comment. Well, either way, that your loving nature can spread far beyond you in the same way that something malicious can spread to you. So it's a twin of both inspiration and horror. This idea of not lying
is something that I find really interesting. And of course, Sam Harris wrote his book called lying about exactly this idea that there are this there's a group of people that are radical truth tellers, you know, they they just will not they'll focus on not lying. And what you mentioned about this idea of love, this idea of a way of doing that compassionately, I think is key, because it's very easy to say, okay, you know, we use white lies to grease social situations to not hurt somebody's feelings and so on and
And I think not telling all the truth is a very different sort of moral equivalent to, say, telling an active lie to cover up something that is true. And actually in your documentary, which I want to shout out early on because it's so crazy and experimental and awesome that people who are into this should check it out. And I put a link in the description. It's better left unsaid. I believe you even said, you had a quote where you said,
You ask people for advice when you know the answer, right? But the answer is too painful to actually accept. So you ask someone for advice that they'll hopefully tell you something different or a white lie or something, right? Right. I think that's Emily Zhang, although I could be mispronouncing the name. I think you're right. She had this quote that the only reason you ask for advice is because you know the answer and
You actually ended the documentary with a beautiful quote, which I won't give away, but I think one of the fundamental problems of our time
If we're going to emerge new systems that are going to transform, say, let's even just stick with my specialty, healthcare. If we're going to transform healthcare, we better fucking transform ourselves first, which means the self deception, the lies we tell ourselves about ourselves, the hidden beliefs that we hold about ourselves. For example, if we hold the belief, I'm a good person, right? Not seems on the surface like a wonderful belief.
But when something when we do something or think something, you know, the thought arises, something that isn't nice, or we accidentally or purposefully do something that's clearly not in the best interest of someone else. And that dissonance then generates a kind of tension that causes a weird kind of dysfunction that actually projects outwards. And I think our systems of human, you know, our human systems
I don't see another solution other than extreme self-flagellation and self-mortification even to say that anytime you think you're doing, at least for me, anytime I think I'm a good
Yeah, I think that really involves examining belief.
Who am I? Even that is a series of nested beliefs that we hold and are conditioned from very young ages and are influenced by everything around us and our genetics. I'm not a big blank slate kind of guy. I think a lot of who we are is passed on genetically and otherwise, and then there's a component of environment. But really, I'm with Pinker a little bit, Steven Pinker, on this idea that we really are handed this kind of
You know, I'm going to use a loaded term, this karma, not in a religious sense, but in the causes and conditions that led to us. And to some extent, there is a radical self-acceptance that comes when you realize that you are as you are and cannot be other, which means just that knowledge may allow you a kind of freedom and flexibility to be better than you were. But it involves actually accepting who you are instead of constantly putting up obfuscation and
As a public person, and you are too, and your rise has been meteoric, when I watch your stuff, and actually this is something I should say early on, when I saw your interview with Hoffman and Castro, now these are a couple of the people that I've interviewed, and I watched those interviews and I was like, god damn, this guy's like a kid.
He's vastly smarter, incredibly handsome and is asking these tremendously nuanced questions and had these guys attention and the audience attention for like three hours of conversation. And my immediate response was rage.
unworthiness, jealousy, anger, like all that just bubbles up. I'm like, God, I want to, this guy needs to fail, right? But the cool thing, I was proud of myself. That warms my heart. That's the malicious part of me. The part of me that is more meta aware now from eight years of being on a path of meditation and that kind of thing was like, oh, look at that. What's going on there?
like what part of your ego is really is has a sense of unworthiness or the sense of like you never good enough and so on and so forth and by examining that like my next act was to send you an email and go dude you're awesome i love what you're doing and that connected us and and you had sent me an email prior to because you had just reached out spontaneously and it's very weird that
You have to have some degree of self-awareness to allow things to happen that I think are beneficial for all, but that requires the work. You have to actually put in the work. I don't think we're born that way. There are very few that are born that way. I certainly wasn't. I am a complete asshole at baseline, complete asshole. I share your
animosity for those who succeed in a domain that you think you should be succeeding at a greater level than the person who is. I've come to the, and I haven't come to it, but I'm coming to this idea of, well, love thy enemy. And there are some people, especially in the self-development scene, because I used to be a part of that, that I despise. But I think that the reason I despise them is because I'm jealous. And so
It took almost everything out of me, everything from me, to click the like button on someone that I hated. And I did that as a test for myself. And there's this calm that comes at least over myself after I... I tell this story plenty. So some people ask me, how are you supposed to solve this whole extreme left, extreme right divide? And someone was interviewing me on the radio recently
yesterday or or so I believe he said he wanted me to say what because he's against the extreme left and he wanted usually the people who are adamantly against the extreme left identify with being a part of the right or even extreme right and he wanted me to say that what we need to do is fight back and I'm I'm for standing up for oneself and saying what one believes I think that's noble and extremely difficult but I don't advocate for any
fighting, I advocate for extending an arm of love to one's enemy in the same way that there's the story of Jesus. And I'm not saying this as a Christian. I'm not Christian. I'm saying this as the teller of a story that if you truly thought about it, it would bring you to tears. When Jesus was being taken away by people who he knew, at least according to the story, were going to torture him, kill him,
Peter who was his friend cut off the ear of the soldier who was taking him away and Jesus said no and took the ear and healed his enemy and like that kind of love man to be shouted at and still say and not in a condescending way because it can easily be condescending I love you despite you hate no but mean it and heal your enemy I think that's
Despite knowing what they're doing to you, I think that's the path forward. And obviously, someone can say, well then, we'll just be taken over by brutal dictators, the bullies. I don't think that's true. I think that these tit-for-tat models don't take into account inspiration. The story of Jesus is inspirational. So these separate agents who can interact with one another with different strategies such as tit-for-tat or tit-for-tat with forgiveness, I'm sure you've heard of these models, the people who are listening.
I try to end every show we do with I love you guys and we're out and mean it.
like actually mean it, like I love everybody as they are myself, which gets to, you know, one of those interesting philosophical and ontological questions of what is the nature of reality? If are we one substance? Is there one mind? And you talked to Kastrup and Hoffman and Spira about it. And I'm just curious where having talked to all these guys and physicists and having this mathematical and physicist background,
You know, in your documentary, you were very, it was really remarkable to watch because, and again, for some people, they're just gonna be like, I don't, what the hell? And for others, you know, like myself, I was just like, oh, I've never actually connected the dots in the way that he's connecting it. And by the end, you know, I watched the long director's cut, it was two hours. You said, what's the minimum amount of information necessary to extract the information and the meaning from the message?
And I thought that was a fascinating experiment because, you know, two, four, six, eight, like how much do you need to get the rest of the pattern? And your point was, well, maybe when we look at something like the Bible and we think, oh, you know, this whole thing could be reduced to the 10 commandments or, you know, or the golden rule, which is something I despise.
I mean, I despise people saying that that's what connects all religions, and that's all we need. And I can talk about that after, but continue. Let's definitely follow that, because that's great, the golden rule. So yeah, and there's this idea, but then you say, but is that really true? Because this was written, first of all, in a time and a context that's different from where we are now. Could the meaning have only emerged from a length that's roughly the length of the Bible, say?
Let's talk about the
I would also talk about the length of the Bible, or the ancient texts in general, and I'd say that not only is the length of the Bible maybe not protracted as much people, as plenty of people think, but it's necessary and also not sufficient. So there's one... Well, how do you get that? See, apparently they're... not apparently, there's something called the Protestants who were driven by sola scriptoris, meaning by scripture alone. I don't know if I buy that because plenty of
Our values are also embodied. Now I've referenced this in the documentary, there are four forms of knowing, at least four forms. Propositional, that is, I'm speaking right now, if you were to simply read it, that's propositional. Procedural, I'm gesticulating, so there's at least a modicum of body language, though the research says that it's 70% and I don't understand how they get that number.
because how do you quantify what the message is? And so, okay, there's that. Then there's participatory and then forgive my lastitude. It's, it's been quite a grueling week for me. Yeah, you you've not slept, right? I haven't slept well for a few days. And I've been on this string of podcasts. This is the fourth one for today. And after this,
I'm not looking forward to this ending. I actually wanted to speak with you for like three hours if I can. But after this, Zubin, I am going to just... I'm gonna feel like a junkie that just put heroin in my body and just dissolve in a sea of bliss for hopefully a week or two weeks because I need a break. Okay, we can talk about that after getting to the four forms of knowing there's participatory, procedural,
It's not clear to me that religion is propositional per se, and I know the new atheists like to pick apart texts and literally interpret it, and there's a word, there's a great word to, if you don't know, it's called subruption. It means an inference drawn from a deliberate misrepresentation. So what they're doing is, when they disprove the Bible, they're
They're using subreptions. And I don't think that's true. Firstly, I don't think the Bible's meant to be interpreted literally. I also have a problem with the word literal interpretation because you can't have a literal interpretation. Literal means uninterpreted. So it's almost as if you're saying uninterpreted interpretation. And then third, it's not clear that all of what a religion is, is in the text. So I'm not a fan of sola scriptores per se. Sola scriptora, I think it is.
I want to go back to your sleep. Yes. How's that going? Why so bad? Because you're desperate for some rest, and I think a lot of people in healthcare in particular suffer this syndrome. What's been going on? What's driving you? How's your sleeping and all of that? I find it difficult to shut my mind off.
I have tried meditation for years, but not consistently. I don't find it helps. I also find that people who, you probably see this, people in the non-dual community, people who are Eastern, people who are Western, they think that their view is the correct one and they try to blanketly apply it to everyone.
I don't know if meditation is for everyone, and I wonder if part of my self-torture is by trying to impose meditation on me when I'm at this stage not meant for meditation. It could be that. It could be I'm not meditating correctly. But either way, meditation doesn't help. Medication can help, but I'm not going to take benzodiazepines, though melatonin works a scintilla. CBD seems to work a bit.
either way what's kept what keeps me up is generally if I have an interview for the next few days I'm playing over scenarios and I'm trying to understand the theory of the person that I'm interviewing that's one of the I was speaking with a prominent youtuber I'll tell you off air who that is Zubin he was asking me he's like hey Kurt I have more subscribers than you but you have more views how is it that you do so and then he and then I said it's extreme luck which it is like 95% luck man
and then also an extreme amount of work and the work is because I'm trying to understand I'm trying to comprehend these theories the whole point of the podcast is not I don't care too much about conversing with people I care about understanding the landscape of theories of everything explicating them and perhaps even advancing our own I say our own because the theories of everything YouTube is almost like a community and and I'm I would like it to be a I would like myself to be a vessel rather than the
There are some YouTube channels that have had a name that's tangential to what they do and then their name attached.
I'm going to pick on some people, but please, these two YouTubers, I love you. Okay, so there's Artificial Intelligence with Lex Friedman, and then there was Modern Wisdom with Chris Williamson. And then what they do is they remove the prior, and then just they omit that and keep their name. I am toying with doing the opposite, because I don't want this to be about me, so maybe eventually it'll be theories of everything. Obviously there's some of me that's doing
a bit of branding by keeping my name in the channel, but at some point I'd like to truncate that. Either way, the whole point of the channel is to explore theories of everything, so I'm deeply ensconcing myself in these theories. They're not trivial, not trivial in the least. In fact, try reading three pages of what Chris Langdon has written. That took me a day to get through three pages, and then it gets
gets quicker obviously as you get familiar with the terminology but I'm trying to understand these and so I was talking to someone who's a prominent youtuber and he was saying hey Kurt your channel has less subscribers but more views how I said it's like luck and then work extreme amount of work and he got offended at the extreme amount of work aspect he said well my work doesn't drain me I just listen to them I listen to guests on podcasts I go for
I do it while I meditate or while I'm doing the dishes. In fact, it invigorates me. And it was as if he was offended that I said that the work that I do drains me. And I do think what I'm doing right now, the way that I'm doing it is unhealthy, obviously, because I'm barely able to articulate a sentence here. But I don't see right now, I don't see another way around this, given the goal of deeply trying to understand these theories of everything.
So that affects my sleep at times. Luckily, Zubin, after this, man, I just, I'm going, I'm going to rest for like, I'm going to hibernate for a little while. Man, I, how old are you, Kurt? Can I ask? Yeah, sure. How old do I look? You're not going to offend me. Oh man, you look like you're in your twenties, dude. No, I'm 32.
Really? Well, dude, so you're still 32 to me is it is is very young. And when I was your age, my mind was so overactive, and I was like you, very diligent and very wrapped in the intellectual aspects, the thinking process and the making the connections. And if I closed my eyes, a million thoughts and a million connections. And with that came with that kind of
capacity comes high anxiety. So sleep was not there. It just didn't happen. And the, the, that sort of phenotype of person, I kind of see it in you when I see your interviews, because I can tell, I think most of the audience can tell that you've put a shit ton of work into these guests. Like the fact that you can talk for, you know, three or four hours to somebody who's esoteric to begin with, right, is, is pretty remarkable.
There's no answer for that right away. The answer starts to emerge as you become more. Absolutely. I agree. Yeah. If I were to tell you, bro, you just need to realize that you're just pure consciousness, man, and these thoughts are just going across the sky like clouds and you can watch them. Good luck with that. Try that. Just try that. At this stage, we are identified with the thought stream and the thought stream is everything.
and in a way that's awesome, because that's how we, like the guy who was offended by the amount of diligence, you'd really want to introspect and go, hey, why is that? Is he threatened by someone who can work hard and is talented, or is he more really convinced that his way is the only way? I'll tell you, when you tell me that, I go, ah, that's why, it's a combination of things, why your stuff is so good. I have, at this age, I'm 48,
So it took me, I don't know how many decades to release. How old are you? Sorry. I'm 48. So it took me however many decades to release this fixation that I had on hyper diligence as a way to get by. And, but I needed it. If I didn't have it, I wouldn't have the tool tool set that I have to do what I do. And now what I do is I try to drop into,
It used to be I would try not to be. I'd try to be whatever anyone wanted, which was very, it was very ego dystonic. It felt very wrong, but yet you'd get the dopamine burst from whatever validation that came from doing that.
It really took a lot of time for me to find that way. And I'm not saying that's your path, but I think that I'm very sympathetic to what you're going through. It's very hard, very, very hard. Your documentary, by the way, for people who have not seen it, it really speaks to who you are. There's so many gems in there of kind of getting at who Kurt is right now that it's absolutely a fascinating thing to watch.
And when you talk about your parents, I thought that was fascinating because I resonated with one of the things you said, and I don't know if you said this consciously or as just part of who you are, you said, you know, I really, the idea that they may not be around to kind of see what I've accomplished and that kind of thing. I'm like, that's, that's an immigrant thing, man. Like for me, like this idea that so much of my life I lived, like, what am I going to do to, to show my parents that I'm worthy of being a kid of theirs? And
And then at some point something snaps. I think maybe you do actually accomplish enough or you let it go, but then suddenly it's like, how can I show you I'm just like doing as little as possible and just trying to be me? You know, cause I think that's ultimately what we all, you know, what, what I was looking for, but yeah, I gotta change my headphones and I want to hear you through this stream of consciousness. Just give me a second. All right. Yeah, of course. So while you're doing that, I'm going to look at some comments here. Um, boy, there's a lot of comments. Uh,
Too much at one time, try separating the now to what can wait says Ann Cairns. So that's always that's good advice for anyone. It's very hard for an autonomic mind because we're not really we see. So here's one of the things that I thought of, you know, when I was hearing you talk about this, there is for me when that happens. Oh, yeah, sure, sure, sure. Can you hear me now, though, or no? Now you can hear me. Yeah. All right, we're going to find out.
I don't know if anyone can help me with this tech problem. Anytime I use OBS, which is recording right now, there's distortion placed on the Bluetooth headphones. I don't know why that is. Okay, continue. Yeah, I use OBS for streaming live, but not in this case because I'm using a caster, but I found that OBS is very quirky since it's open
Okay, so one thing you said when you talked about this thought storm that you have at night that prevents you from sleeping. I actually think of that as a storm of thought. For many people, myself as one of these, we hold ourselves accountable for having the thought storm and it wraps a series of meta beliefs around
What's actually happening? So thoughts are coming and then we go, these thoughts shouldn't be coming so fast. I should be sleeping right now. Why can't I turn the thoughts off? Why am I having these thoughts? I'm somehow a bad person or I'm not good enough or whatever. And that adds another layer because as, as you probably know from talking to so many people that you've talked to, we don't author our thoughts. In fact, any level of investigation can kind of reveal pretty quickly that these thoughts arise. They may be from causes and conditions, but we're not the author of them. In other words,
We cannot control what we think because even trying to do that actually causes more thoughts to ripple in the pond of consciousness. That doesn't mean we can't frame our response to the thoughts or how we kind of interpret our thoughts norm, but we certainly can't control the actual thoughts that arise. And that illusion of control, which again relates to free will and all that, which is a whole nother thing, but that illusion... We're going to talk about that.
Yeah, we should definitely talk about that. That illusion of control, it creates a kind of suffering. It's a kind of a meta suffering on top of the suffering of identifying with the thoughts. So it's very hard to tease those things out. It's only recently that I've been able to watch my mind enough with a lot of help from different resources to go, oh, look what's happening. This is a thought storm.
You know, okay, okay, don't, don't, I'm not going to judge myself for the thought storm. And what's weird is the thought storm then kind of runs its course. So now when I wake up at 3 a.m. with this feeling of like pressure in the chest, this unknown source of anxiety, right? That clearly has some cause and condition that I can't pinpoint. And then the thought storm launches. Oh my God, why am I anxious? Why am I so anxious? Oh, I have an interview today. Oh man, what am I going to do in this interview? And then the thoughts start secreting like the sponge of the mind squeezes and it just secretes these thoughts.
I'm able to actually at some point get a meta aware, metacognition and go, Oh, look at this. Look what's happening. Okay. Okay. When you say you're able to do that, how are you able to do that without exercising free will? So this is where I find free will is a fascinating, fascinating thing. So, you know, I, we know the arguments against free will. We know arguments for determinism that everything is just causes and conditions and we're just along for the ride, but actually
I'm increasingly wondering whether how we direct our attention is not one of the only things within some degree of will. Now Hoffman with his conscious agent theory actually feels that each agent within the complex instantiation that we are has its own
de novo free will, but it's constrained by the free will decisions of other agents within the matrix. And therefore, true likes free will at this instantiation isn't really true, it's constrained, but yet novelty still enters the universe in the form of decisions at each level. And so I think free will is, I don't think there is no free will, I think free will is not what we think it is.
I think it is, and I'm not a compatibilist or something like Dennett. I just don't think it's what we think it is. So there's something that happens, and you could even say this, well, even that's not free will when I'm recognizing the thought storm and I'm deciding to do this thing. It's more that this neuronal storm, this complex series of happenings that is me, suddenly because of previous causes and conditions, I read a text
I studied some Buddhism, I read Sam Harris' book on free will, I studied Angelo de Lulo's book on awakening, and now there's enough juice there to emerge a decision that's mine to go, oh, this is a thought storm. I should sit back and watch it and then let it dissipate. So it's very complex, and I think even claiming to understand it would be just pure foolishness.
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that our decisions are based upon the prior conditions and these are also not within our control. I would say this, I'm actually kind of partial to the Buddhist idea of dependent origination, that everything happens because of causes and conditions that aren't simple. It's not just, I lift up the cup, therefore this happens. It's more like the entire web is connected in ways that even the superest supercomputer could never predict yet.
and that then unified vibration of stuff happening affects what thought arises next. Have you heard of Wolfram's concept of computational irreducibility? I haven't. Okay, so what it is, Wolfram thinks that this is the origin of free will. Computational irreducibility means that a system is
You can't predict the outcome of the system without running the system. And because we're embedded within the system that we're running, you can't predict your own actions unless you simply run them. Almost like... A simple example is fluid dynamics. It's difficult to know where a certain particle is going to end up unless you just simulate it. You can't derive it.
Right, okay, well then he would say that that's the origin of free will. It sounds similar to what you're saying. Okay, I love that and I'll tell you why because I think there's, I don't know if it's fMRI data or what, but human minds simulate out what they're going to do. And in fact, I think Sam Harris has talked about this. If I go, I want to pick up this cup
My mind has already done a projection. This is what it looks like. And it lights up motor sections of the brain that would normally be involved in actually picking up that cup. So in a way, our mind is like a future predictor, but that act of prediction feels to the to the consciousness that we are like a free will decision. It's almost like, you know, it predict, you know, and these studies have been cited now, you know,
you've made a decision like up to six seconds on fMRI before you're aware the decision has been made. But that doesn't mean that some aspect of your mind system hasn't, hasn't, hasn't, in a free will sense, de novo made a decision that you're just not aware of at this level of consciousness where we are. And that's why, you know, we have all these unconscious processes that in themselves may well be conscious at their level in a way we are not able to experience without
brain damage, drugs, whatever, that put us at that level. So free will becomes this intensely complex thing to even think about. And one thing I want to say is, if you've ever had a meditative experience, and it's not really meditative, it's more a non-dual experience. And what I mean by that is, and I can actually try to put myself in this headspace even now,
where and there's a beautiful old piece of wisdom writing a buddha sutta called the bahiya sutta that that points this out and it goes like this train yourself this way is what this wise sage is saying telling to someone he's trying to learn to be enlightened and he says train yourself in this way in the scene there will merely be what is seen
in the herd there will merely be what is heard in the thought there will merely be the thought and so on through the six senses which the sixth is mind and the idea there is notice what isn't there is a you an eye a perceiver when they say in the scene there will merely be what is seen it means that
there is just seeing. So this cup is just this self-knowing, self-illuminating happening. Now, when you drop into that state, the self cannot be found. There's no I having the experience. Experience is experiencing. Appearance is appearance-ing. And that feels like a kind of sense of agency that is very different
So this is not saying that there is no self, this is saying that the thoughts that you traditionally identify with yourself are not you, something like that, or is this
and a statement for the dissolution of the idea of self at all. So it's even beyond that. It's that there's no experiencer. So do you know how Rupert Spiro will talk about step back as be the awareness, the sense of I am the consciousness is what we are is his one of his teachings, right? There's a step beyond that.
which is even consciousness as a subject, as an experiencer, disappears. And then even the idea of self, it's nowhere to be found. There's no you there. And it's very hard to put into words, but what that feels like is things happening, and that includes sound, sight, hearing, smell, taste, and thoughts. So thoughts materialize,
and they're, they just are what they are. So everything is just appearing, but there's no subject. And it's not even that the idea disappears. It's that even the con there's nothing there. It's just stuff happening. And the way that feels is infinite, okayness, infinite freedom and no suffering. And the reason there's no suffering is who's the subject of suffering. So even if a painful sensation arises, it's just experienced in and of itself as
When you say that it feels okay, who's it feeling okay to? Why is there no experiencer there?
You could say it this way, and again, even this is not doing it justice, and people who've had this experience are going to be laughing at me going, this asshole's trying to explain this in words, and you can't. I understand. I mean, I can see. Yeah, it's very tough. You can think of it this way. Pain is just, it's a self-illuminating process. In other words, it's a vibrating field of experience that just is in and of itself without the need for a subject.
It's truly non-dual, meaning not to. There's no subject and object, there's just this. So if we were to just stare at this object, attention in a way, the beam of attention that feels like it's coming from a subject to an object, that evaporates and the object just radiates its own being in a way that feels more real than anything that you could experience as an experiencer.
The thing is to come from that state and then try to describe it is absolutely not possible. All you can do is point with words to evoke that natural state in people, but even that you have to be really good at that. Like Rupert's very good at that. There are people that can point very directly. Muji on YouTube is very, very good at pointing very directly. Adyashanti might be good at pointing very directly. And when you experience it and people experience it in flow state,
I disappeared and things were just happening. It was this just beautiful flow. And all they come back and go, I want that again. Because when you experience it, you have this weird intuition. And again, who is this you at language will fail us. There's an intuition that this is what everybody's been talking about and seeking throughout all time. When we look at any spiritual or wisdom pursuit. And I've only had sort of unstable
short-term glimpses of this and when I've come back I've been like oh the ego immediately reasserts itself and goes oh I'm the guy that had that experience that was dope I'm gonna tell stories about it right it's really interesting but in the moment you're just like it's just pure wonder personless just oh and and then you come back and the mind comes and tells a story about it because it has to there's nothing else it can do he has no words for it
You made an argument as to why we shouldn't experience pain when we're in that state. You used the word vibration. I don't recall what the exact statement was, but why can't we not use that same argument to say that even the feeling of bliss when you're in that state is an illusion and there's no bliss either? So I would put it this way. All that is in that state is what is. So the raw experience, the unfiltered reality of what's happening at that moment,
and whether it's a sensory experience like the sensation of pain, we call it pain because we apply this conceptual label to that experience. We say pain, which has a charge, a valence of negative, and then a response of avoidance, or projecting a thought into the future, when will this pain go away, or a memory, oh, this feels like that time I had appendicitis or whatever. Without all that overlay, it's just this sensation happening
in now to no one and that's the other thing is time is not even if there's no conceptualization of time so it's just all happening as a kind of a wave right now now that can sound disconcerting and actually anyone who's done psychedelics at any point may have had experiences like this and then come back to sobriety and said oh man i was just tripping balls but what you may have touched into is the timeless nature of
raw experience without the conceptual overlay and what that feels like to a mind when it comes back is, oh, I was tripping balls, right? But in reality, it's really one of the most natural, it's probably the natural state prior to mind imposing itself, in my opinion, because I can only speak from my own experience. Well, you can't speak from your own experience if there's no you. So when you say that, that's just a linguistic device. It's a linguistic device, exactly.
By the way, Kurt, the non-dual people do these linguistic gymnastics around trying to not use the word I and all that. That's dumb. I think language is designed for a we space, right? So you have to use language to try to describe something undescribable, and all you can do is point in the direction. Only you can kind of have the experience. And by you, even that, you see where the language fails pretty quickly.
Are you of the belief that what lies at the immaterial fundamental level is something like a non-dual vellum, just this one sheet, and it's undifferentiated? It's so hard to make metaphysical, ontological claims about the nature of reality without invoking belief, because you said it there, belief. Is it your belief? And belief is another thought, it's another conceptual label on experience.
I would say this. From an intellectual side, I've been uncompelled by the materialist paradigm. Feel free to interrupt me. Yeah, I was going to say you mentioned that belief is a conceptual thought. I don't buy that. I don't think that that's the case. I think that we think it is, and I think that's part of the problem. For example, if you say, I believe that I'm in a
I believe this stove is not hot. But then you say, well, put your hand on it then. It's red. And then you're like, no, no, I'm not going to. I would say you believe with your body. Your actions belie your beliefs. So what you say with your mouth doesn't match your actions, and your actions are your true test of belief. And if it's embodied, then your beliefs aren't simply concepts, aren't simply abstractions. So the unconscious response of the body
And remember, I actually wonder whether the body itself is not just part of a continuum of consciousness with its own belief, conditioning. And you may be right that it's not a thought-based conceptual thing as much as it is an overlay on experience, because let's think of it this way. I don't believe, okay, let's take the belief out of it. Putting my hand on that hot stove, right? I'm gonna do it now. Right? Okay, my belief.
From conditioning, from experience, and from what the body is autonomically telling me that's been conditioned into my unconscious, into my reflex patterns, right, is this is bad, this hurts, must stop, not good. Okay, there's the belief component of it. If I didn't have those reflexes, and I'm experiencing unfiltered reality, I would just experience
the vibrating temperature field of that experience, which the mind would then say, this is terrible, you need to stop now you're dying. And you would then smell the burning flesh, which would be a pure sensory experience. So in other words, there's a conceptualization that the mind does to raw data from the sense field that's necessary. And it's so fundamental to us being human that you're saying, well, I think it's more fundamental than that is not wrong.
I understand that one can get to a place where one feels like
there is no pain but to me that's a different claim than saying that there is no pain that's the claim that I've gotten to a place where I experience no pain where traditionally pain would be felt like these Buddhist monks who can light themselves on fire that's that to me seems like well what I'm about to say is contradictory but that to me seems like an adaptive strategy rather than an ontological claim like one can
It's like a tool. Meditation may even be a tool, rather than... And we're mixing up the tool with a claim about reality. I don't know, I'm just saying that I'm unconvinced in each direction. Now, let me ask you a question about this. When... Given that the mind is self-deceptive,
And we know this, and experience is fallible, or at least the inferences drawn from experiences are fallible. Then why would one make the claim that just because I can get to a state where I feel like the self is an illusion, that the self is an illusion, given that the self seems to be the most pernicious illusion, and yet we've dispensed with it, how do you know that that itself is not an illusion? Right, so this gets to the question of how deep do you have to go before you can convince yourself that something
isn't illusory. And I think neuroscientists, I think, could say, well, there's no seat of the self, even neurophysiologically. There's no little homunculus in the mind where it's the thing that's the point where you're sitting behind your mind. You can look at default mode network and go, okay, a lot of our discursive thought about self, our ideas of self and our inward ruminations
kind of originated in the default mode network, which itself is not a point, it's a diffuse kind of body of things, and there are aspects of that even. I actually think that, and again, so some of this comes from experiencing these states, and the question is, what truth can you pull out of that? And when you talk about even meditation as a tool, like you're lighting yourself on fire, I think there is a component of, there are meditative practices and jhanas and things like that where you can actually
you get very good at ignoring sensory stimulation to where it doesn't distract you. And that's very different than allowing yourself to experience the raw experience of being on fire and doing nothing about it. So again, without having gone through that, it's very hard to investigate because the way you would have to, there's no way to investigate these easily without doing it introspectively because it refers to inner states. But then how much can you extrapolate out? And I think
Harris struggles with this. So he'll always put the disclaimer, well, you know, I'm making no claims about the nature of the universe. I'm just saying this. Whereas Deepak Chopra takes the opposite tact and says, well, because I've experienced this in meditation, it must be true of the whole universe, right? And I think both of those are very extreme statements. I think what you have to do is you have to kind of, again, approach it scientifically and say, okay, so what would a materialist paradigm say about the nature of self? Is the self a real thing?
Well, I think even materialists will say, well, no, it's probably a construction that's made by neurochemical processes in the brain that themselves are not conscious. So how is that any more real than saying, yeah, the self is actually a mind construct made up of thought, belief, and it's a very tight web of thought, going to thought, going to thought, that's conditioned from birth, that's all made of consciousness, and it can be seen through, it can actually relax. It never goes away really, it can relax.
and get out of the way of raw experience. I'm not sure there's a big distinction there, which is why I'm increasingly convinced that when people talk about awakening, say, spiritual awakening, really a big piece of that, I think, is the dropping away of the false sense that I am this
to go to the next level of I am this which is consciousness itself and then even that collapses into what I am nothing just this so just this happening and it you this is where you can't even open your mouth about it because there's no you to
And I think that look, look, Kurt, like if this were easy to talk about, it'd be one of those things we'd all be pretty awake because we were just in school. We'd be like, OK, so here's the thing, right? Do these three things yourself drops away. You see truth as it is. If only and yeah. Yeah. OK, I'm unsure. I know that there's the claim of of what one cannot speak of specifically. One must be silent. That's Wittgenstein's. And it's also true that it could be that our level of language is not
sophisticated enough. So, for example, go back 10,000 years. Well, that's not enough for grunts, but let's go back to caveman era when there are grunts. Obviously, they lacked a level of language that would allow them to understand what a microphone is, for example, or what any sufficiently, almost anything in this place. They wouldn't be able to understand it in the same way we do because they don't have the language for it. So there's a relationship between language and thought.
And when people say that, well, we can't speak of it. I say we can't speak of it now. I'm not saying that I don't think that necessarily I don't see the reason why language would necessarily be incapable of expressing the thought of the thoughts that one gets to in these meditative spaces. Either way, it doesn't matter. That doesn't matter. Okay. Actually, I think I think that's an important point that you bring up because
Everything that you just talked about is coming at this state from a position of mind. So in other words, from the position of the linguistic mind, which as you say, this is important, cognition and language are not to talk about non dual. They're directly related. And in your documentary, I think you interviewed a dude who was talking about that actually quite directly. I'm forgetting his name now, but this idea that
So this is what I propose to you, Kurt. You may be right, like I can't disprove what you're saying, but I can only say this from the experience of that state, I can say pretty firmly coming back and then using language. I said, I, it's not a words thing. Uh, and, and the only way you will be able to understand that argument is by experiencing the state, which again is
It's actually not difficult to get to, but you have to be pointed in a way and open in a way. And you have to almost surrender the resistance of all our conditioning, which that's what makes it hard. And I struggle with it. I struggle with it. And the problem is when you come back to the standard mind state from that more open, surrendered, your mind starts to tell stories immediately about how you're not worthy to ever get that back.
I completely understand. At some point, if you just read the dictionary, it only refers to other words. So in a sense, almost every concept needs what's extra linguistic, because you can't talk about what's bumpy, let's say, by reading the dictionary. You have to point to what's bumpy, experience it, attach the label of bumpiness. So maybe because these states are so rare for the majority of people, attaching a name is extremely difficult.
If not impossible. I don't know if it's impossible, but I understand that it's difficult You know what's interesting in your again in your documentary going back to this because I think because let's see this is important How do we we started off talking about? How are we gonna? How's the world gonna emerge better? systems if we don't Actually understand ourselves. Well, you know your theories of everything are Crucial, but they have to include the internal universe of human experience. I think
That's my opinion. And, and the question is, how do we develop ways to point to these truths from people who've had those are operating from that position. So they're operating from that present moment sort of experience. And I've met a couple people who are who do that. And just talking to them can evoke the state. And, and I interviewed one of them, Angelo de Lulo, who's an anesthesiologist
He had an awakening in 97. Since then, he's further 97. So he's my age. He's 48. This is crazy. Talk about jealousy, dude. Talk about jealousy. I was like, screw you, buddy. But the reason he had an awakening is he suffered. He was suffering so much internally with all the just angst and existential dread. At 97, he was suffering? In 1997. Oh, 1997. Not at the age of 97. Sorry.
No, no, no. He's my age. But it was back in 97. And he never, he had this experience where the self dissolved, he was pure emptiness, like the substratum that the universe appears from, from nothing. The idea of Buddhist emptiness doesn't even even kind of touch what he had experienced, he told me. And this, this then he never spoke of to anyone because he found he couldn't say a word about it. And it took him 20 years of
for the
And I tell you, I was walking around like I was on LSD for a good three days afterwards. And even my family was like, wow, you're a different person. It's a real thing. And so how would we begin to use language or the tools that we have to try to emerge that? And I don't have the answers for that, but I think it's something we ought to be looking into. With your cup, it says science the heck out of this or something like that. Do you mind showing it to the camera once more?
Okay, do you believe that? The reason why I say that is because what you've just described has almost nothing to do with science. In fact, it seems anti-science to go to one's experience, the subjective rather than the objective. So what's the deal with that cup? When was that cup made? Was that before this three-day spa with this person? Nope, it's yes and.
Science is absolutely the study of the external third person or internal singular physical icon world. And again, to put it in Buddhist language, the causes and conditions, the dependent origination, what are the rules of that? Why does the manifest world behave the way it does?
a deep adherent of this as a physician and as someone who advocates science-based medicine and so on. But that is a yes and. So even transrational thought, it's not thought, this experience of like, well, okay, so what's the substratum then that even encompasses science? And that's what I'm pointing out with what I'm saying. But science is still absolutely valid at that relative level of existence, which is what matters to most humans because
Like us even being able to talk is understandings of quantum mechanics and understandings of electronics and Wi-Fi and all that. So, and medicine, so this is where it gets the intersection with medicine. Medicine has gone a long way using the reductionist scientific method. Reductionist meaning, and that's a very charged word. I don't really like it. It's more saying, okay, it's a materialist paradigm. There are receptors and gates and molecules, DNA and so on. And if we understand that, we'll be able to
do anything
science for lack of a better term. Man, I'm so glad you talked about this. Zubin, something I've been thinking about for quite some time is what is, and I don't like to say this, and I talked about this at the, I was speaking to previously, what is science 2.0? In essence, theories of everything is, the project is, it's teetering on the edge of that question. Think about science 400 years ago. It's not the same science now. It wasn't even called science.
And then so science developed. So then you can wonder, well, where is it headed? And then by what criteria does one include this into science versus not science? I call it Abhijanasis, which is a mouthful, but it's a merging of Gnosis, which is knowledge in the Western sense, and then Abhijana, which is knowledge in the Eastern sense. I'm not even sure if that's correct. Maybe there's a trichotomy rather than a duality
But either way, this whole investigation as to what is the next science. And you just mentioned, well, science is so-and-so. But I also think science is an investigation not of reality, but of objective reality, as it's currently defined, because you require intersubjective agreement. So agreement between plenty of people. And right now, you've had experiences that I can only glimpse at a scintilla of understanding. So we don't have intersubjective agreement with this, but it is still part of reality, or experience is part of reality.
That's not captured in science. So that's why I was saying, it depends on what you call science with your cup, if whether or not you want to follow it. Additionally, you mentioned as a physician, and I think any science outside of the hard sciences like math and physics are in the realm of ethics because you have to apply it in the world of action. So you have to say, is this intervention worth it? And over there you have a value judgment.
science would just say if then statement so if you give this person this will happen if this if this if this if this you then have to select between them which is it's a moral hierarchy it's an ethic and i don't see that as incorporated into science per se so please let me hear your thoughts on that man i love this is the kind of shit like i just love just because it's what i call
You call it science 2.0, right? No, I hate it. I mean, I say I hate calling, I call it abiogenesis, which is, I can't even pronounce it. That's better. That's kind of awesome. Thank you. Thank you. It's worse. I geek out and call it like health 3.0, which is this idea that it's, the science is there, we're evidence empowered, but then you have this relationship with a patient that has these currently intangible, because we don't have
Inter subjective ways to measure these things easily you have that relationship and that hope streams and fears of the patient that if you know it and you form a therapeutic alliance which emerges some state that we don't understand that we call the mind-body connection because we were you know basically monkeys flapping our meat holes what do you mean when you say therapeutic alliance what do you mean explain that please so a therapeutic alliance everybody a lot of people have had this experience where look I'm having this suffering I'm having this issue I'm having this
mental thing, I'm having a physical thing, whatever it is. I think they're all the same thing, honestly. When I find someone, a healthcare professional, who sits with me, feels connected to my suffering, understands what I'm trying to say, witnesses my suffering, it almost doesn't matter what else they do, that alliance that we formed, this intersubjective we space, emerges a kind of healing for lack of a, you know, it's a very woo woo new age way to talk about it.
And anyone who's practiced medicine knows this to be true. Anyone who's been a patient and has experienced it, they may not know it because they may still have this expectation. Well, but he also gave me an aspirin or gave me an antibiotic and I got better or maybe they gave me an antidepressant. What they will not, and this is why if you read reviews of docs online, what they do doesn't matter. It's how they did it. That's fascinating. It has to do with also complaints. Doctors who people dislike get complained against at a far
Absolutely. And this is interesting because doctors who get those complaints, and again, I'm deeply connected in the healthcare community, right? There's like 3 million people who follow across platforms and most of them are healthcare professionals and I get messages. They are wounded deeply when they get a complaint that says, hey, I don't like the way this guy treated me or the way that they behaved or the way their staff was, because they'll say,
I did all the scientific stuff. I'm more evidence-based than the doctor that they wrote a good review for. I'm doing things. I'm trying not to harm the patient. So on. They have these expectations. They want antibiotics for a cold. They want narcotics for pain. I know that's harmful. And so they were mad at me. But what's missed there, and that's norm, that's defensive sort of posturing. What's missed there is that, well, so what failed in the therapeutic alliance that we're not
able to let ourselves see because it's hurtful to us because we realize, oh, there's something about me here that is actually, and why are they defensive in the first place? Because they know underlying it is this kind of unworthiness that many of us have, you know, as type A's. So it is a dynamic. And is that something taught? What I mean, but no, what I mean is in school, do they teach you how to be personable or amiable? They give you lip service to the bedside manner and the patient relationship and they
They do this kind of thing, but they've not figured out how to teach it. The way that we learn it is by example from whoever our attending physicians are. So what I would try to do is try to emulate doctors that I knew were really good at that. But if you have bad mentors or bad examples, which is rampant because we just recapitulate our own training and a lot of
older doctors are injured by their training like the training used to be just absolutely even more brutal than it is now injured by it injured meaning psychically injured by it so you know it used to be very common you would just be in the hospital for 36 hours or longer working the whole time constantly shamed I see yeah so they then recapitulate this cycle and and so you watch it and and then of course it bleeds into patient care because you've been trained to be a psychopath
And now you're asked to be compassionate or empathetic, right, which I don't conflate, by the way, compassion and empathy, which we can talk about, they're quite different. And actually, one is harmful, one is actually beneficial. But so we're not really trained it, we watch doctors doing it. Now, one thing I remember seeing, for example, is, you know, Dr. Norm Risk, who was the head of ICU when I was there training at Stanford as a resident, he would tell patients that in the ICU, sickest of the sick, patients that we all knew, like us residents were like, why are we still
It's ventilating this patient on tons of agents to keep their blood pressure up, giving them all these antibiotics, millions of dollars of care, patients unconscious, never going to make it. Family is not clear that this is the end. And why are we doing this? This is a kind of injury to us because we're forced to be complicit in a torture because nobody is going to openly say what's absolutely true, which is we're not helping this patient. So what Norm Risk would do is he would call a family meeting with all of us. We'd sit there with the family.
he would hold the hand of the person he was talking to as the authority figure with the gray hair. And he would say, you know, there comes a point where we are doing things to your husband instead of for your husband. And I think we are past that point now. And he would then engage in, you know, whatever anger or denial or bargaining or anything that came out. And by watching that, by absorbing that,
you model, you imprint on that like a little duckling. And when you talk to patients, that same sort of language emerges. So that's, that's a lot of how the apprenticeship of medicine training works. Now, you can imagine though, if you don't have a norm risk, and you have, you know, Bobby McBobby from the community who's been injured by their own training and doesn't is burned out, and they're going to model that to you. And honestly, by the end of my full academic career,
as a hospital doc, I was modeling bad behavior to residents because I was pretty burned out. So, you know, it took stepping away to regain the connection to actual compassion, because empathy wasn't working because empathy will kind of burn you out. Because empathy is feeling someone else. Yeah, so and let's be very precise. So affective empathy is
Feeling someone else's suffering as your own, so taking that suffering and really inhabiting it, and then acting from the feeling of suffering. Not so much for love of the patient, but acting for relief of that suffering. Oh, I know what it's like to withdraw from narcotics.
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I have a quick question about morphine while we're on this. I know we're on a great thread. Morphine apparently doesn't cross the blood-brain barrier. Is that correct?
Yeah, I actually don't know the answer to that. Okay. I don't know the answer to that. Yeah. Okay. Well, as far as I know, heroin does, and the heroin becomes morphine in the brain, and that's one of the reasons heroin is more potent than morphine. I don't know if this is true. So most of them are processed in the liver to turn into morphine compounds that are then active. Okay. Well, something I was wondering is, why is it that morphine feels good when it seems to give you a slight high if it doesn't cross the blood-brain barriers? That's simply because of the connection between mind and body?
Well, okay, so first I'd have to confirm that that's true, that it doesn't have a central effect because I think it does. I know it has, you know, direct central spinal effect. There are opioid mu receptors throughout the nervous system and I don't know, it could be just because I haven't looked at this in a long time, but the euphoric sense, which isn't, it's actually different for different types of opioids and partially it's how they're metabolized
And a pain specialist would be able to speak to this more cogently. But we found patients would request specific narcotics because they provided a euphoria, like say Demerol, Dilaudid, had much more euphoria than just IV morphine or heaven forbid, you know, codeine, which, you know, I think 10 or 20% of Caucasians don't even process correctly, so they don't get any experience from it. Sorry, you're saying you don't want to give people codeine?
No, no, no, people don't want it because it doesn't give you that, that euphoria. And so, so we always knew like patients will request a certain hierarchy of narcotics. In fact, they will even tell you I'm someone who's dependent on narcotics. And we, you know, we can use this from addiction. They may come to the emergency department with a complaint and say, okay, I'm allergic to morphine. I'm allergic to codeine. I'm allergic to all these aspirin and Tylenol derivatives.
The only thing that helps me starts with a D, I don't remember the name, D, D, D, and you're like, Demerol? Yeah, that's it. Or Dilaudid? Oh, yeah. So there's definitely a hierarchy of narcotics. So they all have slightly different experiences. Now, some of that is expectation. So we talked about mind-body. Some of that is expectation. One interesting thing is the placebo effect, which nobody really understands. There's a guy at Harvard who studies it and some others that study it, but it's been getting stronger over time.
over the decades. Now, why is that? Is it because people, especially Americans, expect our medicines to work more than they did in the old days? And it's gotten so bad, Kirk, that now apparently, if you redid the same studies that showed that certain antidepressant SSRIs actually work, they would no longer work against placebo because the placebo has gotten so powerful. So it tells you again, like how much of this is mined, the WeSpace, the Therapeutic Alliance,
all of that, that emerges health 3.0, where you have the science component of the stuff that you can reduce to the objective. And then there's the internal experience, not just of I internal, but of we, the inner subjective experience, which is, again, it's an internal state externalized between two people. And we use language as a way to bridge it, because there's no way to know your internal state unless you tell me, which is why it's so uncomfortable to describe a non dual experience, because it's the words just fail.
And then you're just like, you think I'm crazy! That's what it feels like sometimes. Remember how I mentioned that I think theories of everything, free will, consciousness and God are intimately tied. I also think that the placebo effect and self-fulfilling prophecies are in there somewhere. I may be writing a book on the placebo effect because there's... Well, it's just the more you think about it, the more it boggles the mind. As for the
antidepressant not performing as well. Why would that be the case unless the antidepressant is harming you? Because wouldn't the antidepressant be raised at the same level as placebo? Yeah, so sorry, I should be very specific. If you did that trial,
exactly back then using the level of placebo that is now, you know, the efficacy of placebo now fail. But what would probably happen now is both would rise. And the question is, would the active ingredient rise more than placebo and still be statistically significant? We don't know, because I don't think the trial has been done. But it is quite interesting. And you're on to something with that. And by the way, tying that back into what your whole, you know, this
You know Daniel Schmachtenberger who I think you know and I were talking and he shared a piece of writing that he wrote he looks at it this way he calls it the dance of the Tao with the 10,000 things and that's a very poetic way of saying the absolute which was whatever is fundamental reality whether it's emptiness or awareness or whatever you want to call it
dances with manifestation, which is the stuff we can measure and quantify and use our typical science on, in an intimate and inseparable way that's beautiful and complex. When I think of human organisms, I think of what Federico Fagin, who I've had on my show, talks about. He's someone who's funded some of Don Hoffman's work. He is a physicist, Italian guy who co-developed the first commercial microprocessor with Intel.
in the seventies and since has worked on AI and stuff and he wrote a book about this he feels that you know humans are these quantum classical hybrid systems where you know when he uses quantum he's talking about this indeterminate space where free will may emerge from nothing and and that may be another for this kind of substance of reality and then it manifests in
this very classical deterministic way in the form of the body and the body like a human cell is a quantum classical hybrid. So you have this really kind of indeterminate free will generating complexity of, of isness. And then you have the mechanistic stuff we can measure and quantify and they're not two. So I think that's an interesting way to look at that. They're not two, not two, meaning they're not separate. They're intertwined.
At the human level or in reality? So in other words, the way he describes it as a metaphor is the human body is like the interface in a virtual reality. The user of the virtual reality is in the quantum realm and is pure free will decision making awareness. And then it interfaces with this realm in an absolutely seamless way where you would never know that this is an avatar.
But again, it's all made out of awareness, ultimately, is his posit. It's all still one substance, but it just appears in this way. And mechanistically, it functions like this, where the avatar and our decision-making... Another way to think about this is when you're in a flow state or you're in an authentic conversation, like we're having a pretty authentic conversation right now, where is any of this coming from, the discussion we're having, the words that we're speaking? It comes from emptiness. It comes from
something that we can't point back from darkness really.
Federico's argument is that it comes from the free will decisions that are in that realm rather than right now. Who knows, right? It's a typical thing to test. This is why when people say free will exists or free will doesn't exist, I'm always skeptical because it's absolutely not obvious. There are reasons to believe it in both directions. And then you mentioned also Sam Harris is someone that makes no ontological claims, but he also said that free will doesn't exist as an ontological claim.
And he also said that God doesn't exist, which is an ontological claim. Of course, you have to define God. Yeah, I find Sam is an interesting character. So just as my own journey, I was a pretty hardcore science-based atheist reductionist. Anything I'm saying now, I would have struck myself as insane and probably that I'd been smoking something and not a good idea. Isn't that fascinating, huh? Isn't it? And that would have been eight years ago that I would have told you that.
What's interesting about Sam is he was my gateway drug to spirituality. So I read his atheist works, you know, Letters to a Christian Nation. And, you know, I forget what the other one was, and was enamored with the new atheists and these guys. And I'm like, these guys are speaking truth, man, religions, bullshit, and all that. Then I read, you know, waking up a guy to spirituality without religion. And I was like, wait, Sam is yearning
deeply for the same mythos.
fundamental sense of isness, meaning, purpose, whatever it is, that everyone who's religious is. He's just found a different angle on it, and that's when I started meditating and exploring that path. But he made it okay to do that. Now I listen to him and I'm like, oh man, he's pretty stubborn about a lot of stuff. Like, you're right, he makes ontological claims about free will and God and so on. And I heard his conversation with Rupert Spira, which was kind of painful to listen to because they were just going at it.
is materialism real or is it all consciousness and how can you say that and so on and I'm like you know you've got Rupert here probably it's a good idea to talk about you know non-dual experience but but it was a good conversation because you could really dig into it he asked one Sam asked one question of Rupert that I thought was fascinating which that was what happens under anesthesia have you ever had general anesthesia and I have and my experience of general anesthesia was this countdown from 10 10
Nine, eight, where am I? I'm here, awake in post-op recovery. There was an absolute slice of reality removed and it didn't have the sense of continuity that you have when you go to sleep. So when you sleep, there's still a sense that, oh, how'd you sleep? Pretty good. How'd you know that? Because there's like a sense of being that occurs when you're asleep.
Maybe it's not just dreaming, I think even in deep sleep. But this was different. This was like, lights out, lights on. And it made me question, well, maybe consciousness is purely a brain-based material thing, because if you give it certain chemicals, it's gone. Gone in a way that I felt like I was annihilated, like that must be what death is like, complete nonbeing. And so Sam posed the question to Rupert, and they got derailed before Rupert could answer.
Can I answer what I think Rupert may say? Sure. Did you experience non-experience? Yeah.
That's exactly what he might say. So just because you didn't feel a level of continuity, you still experienced. You were only experiencing what you experienced. And at that level, there's continuity between experience. I think you nailed it, I think. And what's interesting though, so my mind told a story after the fact of what that experience was. It constructed a reality to fit, you know, because I'd never experienced that. I was like, what?
This
Here's something interesting that I found out after the fact. So propofol tends to do that. People wake up, they don't remember, and they're really amorous with the nurses, and you know, they're like, hey, baby. You know, and the thing is, my surgery was a penis reduction surgery. So it's something that most men, you know, dream of, and I just had to do it out of necessity. So the thing was, I had the sense, looking at the nurse afterwards, that I'd been yapping.
And I didn't ask her, but I sensed that was the case. Now, if that were true, then any experience I had afterwards of discontinuity has no relevance to reality because I was awake and talking, right? And a lot of people who've had propofol will say the same thing. They'll have absolutely no memory of that. It's an amnestic. So you just, memory's gone. So actually rethinking about this, because I hadn't thought about it, you've prompted me to think about this, which you seem to fricking do in your interviews.
So many of your guests go, you know, I've never thought of it this way. I've actually never thought of it this way until Kurt said something that prompted me. That's one of your true gifts, man. So think about it now again. I'm like, hmm, probably my assessment of it is not correct. But that was something that Sam had challenged Rupert on. And then they'd kind of gone off the rails a little bit after that. I remember it being under anesthesia. I remember waking up and just telling the person next to his wisdom teeth, telling the person next to me, it's great. You're going to be fine.
Reassuring this person. But I don't think I was funny. I think that was it. And then I just remember being wobbly toward the car. Okay, getting back to non dualism. I have some questions for you, if you don't mind. Yeah. Is the claim that is that what's fundamental, what's indispensable, primitive, and so on, this this realm of undifferentiatedness,
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Now, I can't claim to be expert or stable in this, but try to imagine, and this is not imaginable, but you can kind of glance at it. Imagine that there's nothing, but that even nothing is not the right descriptor because that implies that there is a thing that you're comparing it to. It's almost just a pure potentiality, a pure
Okay, okay. Well, if it's potential to me, that means that there's a pluralistic notion. It's not non-dual, because there's multiple within a potential. You could be many. But how do I say this? That potentiality by its nature arises phenomena that are in themselves
made of nothing. It's almost like Rupert's analogy of the film projector putting light on a screen. If the screen was this empty potential, the light dances on it, but it's not substantial in itself. It's a manifestation that this thing just does. It's like a primitive urge to just manifest. And even what I'm saying sounds crazy, but that's what it
And there are those who've really gone deep into that experience. My friend Angelo would describe it as, it's the experience of everything happening like a foaming gel, like phenomena are just happening, color, shape, sounds. Even to call it nothing is saying too much. That's interesting. To call it nothing is saying too much. He's saying to call it nothing and he'll say this, he goes, you call it nothing and you're already doing it a disservice. It's not that.
it foams this reality that is entirely empty of substance and that then foams into the same no thing that it came from and that's happening every iota of the now and that's reality and he says one other thing that he says at the very end of this sort of journey is that the one thing you realize that's very destabilizing to people who when you tell it to them is there's no way that things actually are and even that statement
makes no sense to the to the rational mind but he says that is the truth it's just happening by itself and even that is like and now i'm trying to describe how he would describe it and i can't and uh it's really fascinating and you wonder if he's in any way barking up the right tree that the true nature of reality could be even more wonderful and and i said well isn't that nihilism isn't that my next point it sounds like a pretext to nihilism
Right? It sounds like, well, that's the worst thing I've ever heard. And actually as the human mind reads it in his book on the stages of awakening, he says, listen, guys, don't read this if you're easily triggered, because this is going to trigger some feelings for you. And all I'm going to tell you is it's okay. The punchline is everything's better than okay. It's beyond okay. And you're like, what the hell do you mean by that? And you read it and you just want to throw the book in the trash. You're like, I'm sorry,
The punchline is everything's nothing and it's coming into nothing and there's no way things are. What the hell? That sounds like the worst kind of nihilism. It defeats any human impulse to even be compassionate, like why? And what he will say is, trust me, when you experience it, you will know that it is beyond okay. It is actually the best news you could ever imagine.
He says you can't describe that in words. It's just everything happens perfectly as it should. And that means that even suffering, even the experience of suffering is exactly in its right place at its right time. And there's no you to fret about it, but it doesn't mean you don't feel it intensely and that you can't experience life in the relative, in a profound way that you can bear the kind of suffering that you would never have bared feeling you're this.
And again, that sounds crazy, he says, until you experience it. What I'm wondering is, you just mentioned, while we're talking about nihilism, why isn't, where in that is the statement that promulgating infinite suffering or a large amount of suffering wrong? So why, why can I not run amok and murder and rape and pillage and so on?
It's all nothing, it's all okay. Where's the moral compass? Where's the directive? When we had God, we could say there's a judgment here, there's a morality that's set out in the Ten Commandments and so on, thou shalt not. Where's the morality in an emptiness that manifests reality only in the present moment with no future or past and no self? What's to keep you from running amok? Or what's to say that you shouldn't?
And what's to say that you shouldn't? Well, here is what they would say. And again, take it with what you will. When you've had that experience or you act from that space, there is no desire to do anything to another manifestation of this because if you're doing it, it's all one thing. So what's even the point of hurting someone? And I had one person who was wide awake
who had this experience to an extreme realization who I've spoken with to the point where just talking to him will put you in the in a state and he was the one he pointed me to that sutta that says in the scene will be merely what is seen and when he did that with me I had the experience that was the guy who was 24 when he had that experience different guy so this is this is a guy who's an electrician who had an awakening in recovery for alcohol you know in his early 30s family
and had a profound awakening and senses further stabilize his realization and was pointed to me by another person and what he says is because I asked him this exactly this I said well what you're describing to me now because he'll just talk he will try to point for you know an hour straight and I'll sit on the phone just being pointed to trying not to intellectualize too much but you can't help it so I say well what's to stop you from being a complete asshole because it sounds to me that
You still have two daughters that you deeply love and a wife that you deeply love and you continue to do your job as an electrician. And yet you're telling me the nature of reality is this. And by the way, he points to exactly the same thing that Angelo pointed to. And so what's the deal? And he goes, he goes, bro, I just got to tell you when you
Experience this you have no like I will not step on an ant if I can avoid it I will not harm anything. I will go out of my way. I hate cockroaches I now pick them up with a thing and throw them outside because hurting another thing it feels like I'm hurting myself and I and I couldn't comprehend that even intellectually I still with there's no self who are you hurting but he said they're just it's just that way and
Now, that then you have to juxtapose with people who apparently have had quite profound awakenings, who behave in reprehensible ways. You know, the Andrew Coens and certain Zen masters and so on who've, you know, sexually taken advantage of their students and have never done the work on themselves. They've spiritually bypassed all their own baggage and that baggage still comes out unconsciously or consciously and they behave in what we would classify as reprehensible ways.
You know, I don't know the answer. Okay, so I understand if you were to experience that you get to a place where you would no longer act in a manner that promulgates suffering, but what's to say that those who are currently promulgating suffering are wrong to do so? Yeah, they aren't from this viewpoint. They're just doing what they... Right, so this sounds like, so this is nihilism then, no?
So again, I guess it depends on how you're talking about nihilism, but the idea that you would be compelled not to generate suffering. So what you exude in the world would be something that actually reduces suffering, but you could look at suffering. And what Angelo describes to me is he says when he sees suffering, he feels it intensely and purely, but without self, he feels it. And there is an urge arises to do something about it. You don't want to tolerate suffering.
and he told me the story actually about I can't repeat the story but it was about standing up for somebody in a very difficult situation where he had to intervene and this is as a fully awake person so it's interesting and again not being in that state I can't speak from that state but the sense I get is it is okay now one thing I want to clarify that I said about these gurus who go around us
Yeah, I think this is a very important thing that Angelo pointed out to me, and I think it's true from my own limited experience. The ego mind, in other words, our mind, our structures of conditioning and so on, it does not take waking up to this lightly. It doesn't take it sitting down. Even after awakenings, people then have to contend with
strong unconscious feelings, you know, what Jung would call the shadow and all of this, those arise. And in fact, you can't avoid them now because the
the mechanisms of thought projection to get out of feeling difficult emotions and repressed memory and so on, that becomes untenable, it becomes uncomfortable for you. So you have to face this. But sometimes, and more often than not, the ego reasserts itself and co-ops the story of awakening to, I am the awakened one who now is the guru, who now has power, who now unconsciously is getting validation from the students,
who now is going to fulfill some of these unconscious desires for worthiness by having sex with a student or whatever it is. So I think that's true. And Angela's pointed out to me said even some of the biggest teachers that you see on YouTube, they have signs of this kind of ego thing everybody does because that's just we're so conditioned as humans. It's very difficult to transcend it entirely and still live in the relative world. So
You know, he says, you know, even when you start spiritual pursuits, the ego sitting there in a hammock sipping a mojito going, oh, you want to do spirituality? I got you. I've been doing this for thousands of years. I'll even help you. And it kind of co-ops the story. And I'm actually guilty of that, too. Even telling the story from a position of ego feels a little creepy, right? What would he say? What was this person's name again? Angelo de Lulo. I've done a few shows with him. I can link you up with him. Sure. Angelo. Would Angelo
In order to stop a larger amount of suffering, commit himself to a smaller amount of suffering. So for example, you hit the child in order to stop them from jumping down a stairwell. Or you execute someone if they said, as soon as I'm out of this prison, even within the prison, I'm going to harm and torture and maim. So is he four?
What would he do in that situation? Or just let's imagine a fight is about to break out in the only way, the only way to stop this person as far as he can conceive. The only way is to knock this person on their head, creating a minor amount of suffering in order to save a larger amount. What would he do? So I can't speak to what he would do. I can only give an example of what he has done and told me. And that was in the process of standing up for this person who was much lower in a medical hierarchy. He had to
tell some very difficult and painful truths to another person in standing up. And that caused intense unpleasantness in the now moment that it was happening. And that's how it was described to me. And so in a way it generated suffering then and there for the object. I don't know if it generated suffering for Angelo. I can't speak to that, but it was clear that it did.
the longer term consequence was a relief of suffering and a changing of behavior and so on. So it's really, it's really tough to say what he would do, but I think that that that's kind of how I think about it. And again, I, you know, nobody's, I think our, our humanness, our ego mind interposes. And I want to read one comment here in the thread on Facebook, Laura Ann Hartman says spiritual bypasses are toxic. Familiar with that term Kurt, spiritual bypass. Okay. So this is what that means. And it points to this.
Spiritual bypass is where you wake up spiritually. In other words, you're like, oh, everything's one. We're all consciousness or whatever. There's no self. And, you know, I'm here now. There's only the now. But you never you use that to bypass all the baggage that you've been carrying around all your neuroses and unconscious
and psychological baggage. And so you feel like you're very awake, but in reality, you're acting in the world and people will tell you you're kind of a bigger asshole than you ever were since you had this enlightenment experience. And some people call that Zen stink. It's like another another term for it. Like you walk around like you're this thing. And that's a real phenomenon, I think, is is people want to escape their pain by bypassing ever addressing it. Now, Angelo and his book
that he talked about on the show called awake. It's your turn. It's like a self published thing. It's on Amazon. He has a whole chapter on like, no, you've got to go then and dive into your emotionals, emotional state and feel what you're repressing and look at thought, understand how thought works and it creates a sense of identity. Looking at the structures of self as they create themselves is the only way to understand how your mind's actually working and then be liberated from the suffering component.
One thing I'll say is one thing that I have gotten the capacity to do through practicing this is when I'm in a state of extreme suffering, which happens, I will simply, there's something in my mind triggers to remember, oh, look what's happening and just watch your mind for a second. And I'll go, all right, all right, all right. Oh man. Okay. Feeling this here, thoughts racing, you know, want to cry, like just really stressed and, and then just
take a breath and feel the presence, just the present moment. And man, dude, it is like, it's like someone took 360 jewels of electricity and defibrillated your suffering right there. It doesn't mean it goes away, but it resets from a framework where within just a few minutes, it's dissipated enough that you're no longer suffering like that. And I would have thought I was crazy if I'd heard myself say what I just said, even like, you know, five years ago.
But it's absolutely in our power. So the question is, whatever the ontologic metaphysics behind it is, there may be even simple tools here that are practicable. And it's not straight meditation, right? Because you said something that I thought was fucking spot on early in our conversation. Man, meditation does not work for me. It may work for others, but it doesn't work for me for this kind of thought storming thing. I agree. Like this idea that, oh, suddenly you're going to focus on your breath. When the thoughts are coming, you know, maybe those
Who are some of these people I should speak to? Angelo is one of them. If you talk to Angelo, you'd have a great conversation. It would be a way better conversation than I've ever had with him because you're so good at that. So Angelo de Lulo, honestly there are people
that are more in the Rupert Spira spectrum on YouTube that I don't think you would add a lot to the conversation talking with them beyond what you did with Rupert. But if you talk to Angelo, you'd get a totally different angle, like a totally different angle on this. And I think I would pay to see it, honestly. Someone keeps calling me the nerd that sits at the front of the class who asks questions
It's the best. You're my hero, dude. I've been trying to formulate you, brother, because it's very rare that I'll watch somebody on YouTube and be simultaneously furious that I can't do that, and at the same time just jaw drops in awe. And there's something in your being, something in your mix of intellectualization, which is crucial to getting an understanding, and openness.
Like, beginner's mind. You know, with Rupert, he was forced to talk about non-duality in ways that I don't think he's probably ever had to do it. Which is great, especially for a teacher where you're in these patterns of like, let me explain it the way I know it's supposed to be explained. And then along comes Kurt and he's like, bitch, I don't, here's, what about this? And Rupert's just like, okay, let me think about that, or not think about that. Let me make myself president and have this stuff arise.
It was awesome to watch, man. It was really, really, really compelling. I think it comes from personal humiliation. I've been humiliated by these, like you mentioned. You used to be a staunch atheist materialist for let's say 15 years at least. So same with me. I'm not saying that I'm not that, but I'm sorry. I'm not that, but I'm not the opposite.
and there's so many experiences in my life where I thought for sure this is the case and then it's not and it's come to the point where now the more I trust my own instincts the more I see actually I have questions every single and everywhere so here's an example that's near and dear to you with regard to the whole issue of societal mistrust of science I understand it
I see that, like, I understand it on one level. There's some, there's some amount of following that has to occur, because not everyone can do their own research. So some, and society is based on trust. But then at the same time, for some tenants, bruided by the institutions, let's say, and I'm not using, I'm not, that's not square quotes, I'm just quoting.
okay institutions that like for example masks were good now more masks were bad than masks were good and so on that that they raise my eyebrow when they before wouldn't i was a wholehearted truster of whatever the scientific quote-unquote community says and now
I just I want to look at the research and I understand that I don't want people to take away from this a justification for their own mistrust because that's I see the same happening on the one end that's saying no trust whatever Fauci is saying or whatever whoever is saying I know that's a hot topic right now on the one end you have people who are with a limpid characteristic adhering to that but then at the other end you have people who are completely anti vaccine saying that they're anti
Trust of Science, but then if a scientific article came out saying, oh, it turns out that the COVID vaccines were horrible, you'd see the anti-vaxxers jump on that and say, yes, you see, but I thought you mistrusted science. Why don't you mistrust that as well? Like, you should be doubting everywhere. So for me, I'm doubting everywhere. And even my brother, who is a professor of statistics, math, technically of finance, statistical finance,
He said it would take him a week to go through any meta-analysis, because it's not trivial at all, even for a professor of statistics. That's another reason why I try to do as much research as I can, because I want to understand. So when someone makes a claim like, vaccines are good or vaccines are bad, and by the way, Zubin, there's so many... Oh, okay. You're getting me a bit excited now, man. I like where you're going, brother. You're intruding into my sleep.
something I dislike is it's not just it's the labeling of people who mistrust science as they see them as just Trump supporters irrational Trump supporters and because one side hates Trump so much and Trump has been attached to anti-science then they view anyone who is critical of whatever apologue is given by the institutions quote-unquote as Trump supporters who are racists and bigots and
anti-intellectual and people who are intellectual one of the worst their worst fears it's not being irrational it's being seen as being irrational so they want to be on the side of what's intellectual and I think there's so much hidden motivation behind people to believe what they believe that it takes so much self-investigation you think that you believe in vaccines or anti-vaccines because you're on the side of the truth but you
You peel away and you realize there's something more dark underneath. Man, what you just unleashed is the Pandora's box. That's kind of the central premise of our platform during the pandemic, which is you do have to question everything. You do. At the same time, it's balancing with relying on expertise that you don't have to parse data that you can't parse because either you don't have the time because it's impossible to do it all.
or you don't have the expertise, and then filtering through the lens of the authorities have gotten a lot of shit wrong. There's a huge profit motive. A lot of our regulatory agencies are captured by the same entities they're supposed to regulate, witness the Alzheimer's drug, Adahelm, and the nonsense there that would bankrupt the US Medicare if we actually approved it, and they approved it, despite two studies showing it really doesn't work.
this kind of
Okay, forget about politics and all that. This is about opening your mind to different ideas without judging people who hold opposing ideas as evil. So in other words, hearing everything, seeing everything as maybe having some truth but being partial, and then assuming good intent and having discourse. Well, heaven forbid that there's nothing in social media that rewards that, with the exception of
Andrew Dunbar says, I dozed off shortly after ZDogg introduced the guest. I woke up about 10 minutes ago with no clue what was going on and thought, yes, yes, this is what happens when a society legalizes marijuana.
I don't know if you're talking about you, Andrew, having smoked a little too much, or us, either way. So back to this middle idea. And thank you for the support, Andrew. You can create environments, you can model environments where the pursuit of knowledge, understanding, being civil to each other, that sort of thing, actually is the default. So I was recently on the Rebel Wisdom podcast with David Fuller, and we talked about this.
trying to find sense. One of your big concerns is how do you make sense? How do you make sense when the epistemic commons like our common knowledge sources are gone? There's no more Walter Cronkite. There's no more single source of truth. It's now a bunch of fragments each with their own ideology that it's all about signaling. Like you said, oh, as an intellectual, I don't even want to be perceived as anti intellectual. Half the shit I told you on this thing
I would never have said three years ago because I would have been vilified by like a David Gorski or someone as full of woo, anti-scientific. You know what I'm talking about? So I think this is a fundamental question and I do think it's going to emerge. I think we have to, those on the leading edge of it, which is like our audience, like your audience, my audience, they think like this. So let's encourage it.
I've gotten to the point now where I never used to like censor comments on my threads. But what I'm finding is when people behave in ways that are anti alt middle, so they're throwing ad hominems, they're being very overtly politically idiotic. It's like, oh, you're a Trump supporter because of this, or you're a radical leftist because of this. That's why I loved your documentary, by the way, because you dive into that shit in a deep way, which was beautiful. Thank you. I've started going in now.
and deleting blocking the people who make those comments because what they're there to do is to signal to their tribe. They're not there to advance conversation. And then what I noticed is so then you get all kinds of complaints. Oh, you're you're stifling free speech. It's not free speech. This is the community I'm trying to create. You can come here and this is our value is alt middle. So if you behave in that way, you can disagree with me. In fact, I want you to. But I want you to do it in a way that assumes I'm not I'm not acting in bad faith and you're not acting in bad faith.
I'm still early Zoobin then because my
I'm of the mind, I don't delete a single comment. Some people think I do, but YouTube's algorithm actually filters out quite a few. It does, yeah. And people think I'm actively deleting, I'm not. So my disincentive system is I read each comment, I heart them, but if they're negative toward the guest, I don't heart them. So they can be negative toward me, they can be negative toward the guest's theories, but not ad hominins at the guest, and then that's the only time I don't heart them, but I don't delete.
I actually like what you're doing. You have to do that. That's only because the guest is like, the guest, this is, I, they're in my home right there. So I'm not going to have, invite them in and have them insulted people. Totally. I'm with you. So that's how I used to be. I would only block people who were being absolutely vicious to my guests because it is, it's like someone comes a guest in my home and someone comes and throws feces at them. It's like, no, that's not okay. They're in my house.
But now, if I'm trying to model behavior of how we should have discourse, why should my community
be showing the opposite of that behavior. Now, again, that's not for everyone. And actually, David Fuller and I talked about this on a discussion on Zoom. It's like, what do you do with this? Because you don't want to stifle conversation. But at the same time, you almost want to encourage like, hey, I want you to disagree in the comments, but do it in a way that's civil. And then the comments fill up with people that disagree. That's great. Instead of bald pharma clown, which, hey, I love that stuff, because it juices YouTube's algorithms. Because when YouTube sees controversy, it serves it out.
Is that good for like building an alt middle mindset? No, I don't like snarky comments either or people who ask questions but they are asking it from an antagonistic point of view where they just want to Well, technically it's called trolling or make baits. I Have a discord and so there's moderation there, but not by me because I cannot take part in the moderation I I don't want to censor because I don't I know you mentioned the term good faith and good intentions. I actually
I'm on the opposite end. I don't care if someone has bad intentions. The reason is that I have bad intentions.
And the more I examine my good intentions, the more I realize that they're bad. So I don't care if someone has bad intentions. I also don't care if someone's biased. The reason is that for someone to be biased, sometimes they can get to an argument, a place that you have to be motivated in order to get there. And they can come up to a truth that you would have never found because you're not going to expend the energy because you're not tied to that particular philosophy or whatever it may be. So I actually don't mind speaking to someone who's biased because they will have the most strengthened
are the most strengthened arguments for their position because they're so, they're so devoted to it. Oh, I agree a thousand percent. We're all biased. So the question is you can be biased and come and make these really intense arguments. I want that. What I don't want is just straight ad hominem or like you said, the kind of trolling grandstanding like, you know, if I have a guest and they're just making these comments that are vicious and there's just no
Now I used to just let it all go because also I didn't have the capacity, right? So it's just, but my assistant helps me now and we have these sort of rules of how to do it. But because Facebook got to the point where my audience was asking me to moderate comments because it was just full of just the worst conspiracy stuff, just discounting anything I said based on I'm paid off by some pharma thing, which by the way, that's all public information. I'm a physician, the Sunshine Act
So the key thing is with vaccines, it's so hard to know because you can get a really smart person
online who maybe even be a virologist like Gert Von den Busch give what sounds like a very compelling argument for why we're really harming people and you and I maybe even talked about this
I think this is a terrible idea. We shouldn't be doing mass vaccination during a pandemic. Here are the reasons why. We're going to generate mutant strains that are resistant to the vaccines, but that the immune memory is going to prevent us from being able to fix that even with boosters and so on. So it sounds very compelling. You dig into it and you see, okay, there's some flaws here in the thinking. Actually, some of the science isn't quite right. And oh, he's actually got his own thing that he's trying to develop.
So on your level, not with respect to disbelieving Gert or discounting him in any way, but with regard to hearing the opposition, what I want with my channel, I wanted to get you or someone else who's an expert in virology to speak with Gert or someone else and hammer it out. But
What I don't like and going back to the mistrust of science is that these large agencies, and this is not a right issue, it's not conservative. In fact, Noam Chomsky talked about this in the 70s or 80s with manufacturing consent. The fact that I may be demonetized for talking about the potential dangers of vaccines or having a debate on it, that's where my eyebrow is raised. Why are you
Why are you squelching
They've made everything worse by doing that. That's insane. You have tech oligopolies making decisions on who can speak. That's insane.
What we should do, now here's the problem though. So how do you make sense in a world like this? And this is something David and I talked about, David Fuller, because even my argument to you like, well, I don't want to do a thing with Gert Von den Busch because first of all, I'm not a virologist. We need a virologist. Second of all, there's this idea of false equivalence whereby highlighting a platform that you firmly think is wrong and harmful potentially, you're giving it more credence.
I think that argument is no longer valid in this world. It's no longer valid because they have a platform. It's called YouTube. They can go and say whatever they like. Your job as a scientist or whatever is to try to promote what you think is correct and the discourse that leads to that. So we ought to have virologists going and talking to the bigger people that are, that are promulgating these ideas, you know, the Malone's and Von von den Busch and, um, you know, uh, uh, Pierre Corey on Ivermectin and these kinds of things. Go and have the conversation.
You
I've talked about this publicly before about ivermectin and why I think we need the trials before we can say anything about it. But that all being said, you need somebody who can really dig in. Now the problem is the big virologists are biased in their own way. So they're like part of the mainstream scientific community.
They see this as just an annoyance or a nuisance. They don't realize that these, these folks are influencing a lot of people to not get vaccinated. So if you think the vaccines are safe and effective, then it's kind of on you to go and communicate it. Now, Paul Offit is a big vaccine guy, mainstream guys come on my show a few times, very rational guy, but he is biased towards vaccines. I always says what he does, he's a pediatrician and he's invented the, co-invented the rotavirus vaccine that's, you know, saved countless lives around the world, but he does see it through that lens.
He's written a book on why scientists are terrible communicators. So what can happen is a not very good scientist who has enough of the lingo, who's a good communicator, can convince the world of something that's really a fringe idea with equal weight or bigger weight than the mainstream that are terrible communicators because they're in the lab all day and they're a little bit on the spectrum and they're who they are. Paul in his book actually wrote a lot of stories about how he would go on these press things and just make a fool of himself because he just
First of all, I think scientists overestimate. It's like part of the Dunning-Kruger kind of curve where it's not that you know so little that you don't know what you don't know. That's like very low understanding. You know a lot, but then the cognitive error there is you assume everyone else knows at least as much as you do and you operate from that assumption and it comes off either as condescending or just blind to the fact that people need basic education on this stuff.
It's very complicated and I struggle with my own role in this because, you know, when I do a show, I'm looking, you can see I've got nice equipment. It's all very polished, you know. Too beautiful. You look great, brother. You know, yours is authentic. Only guys compliment. Dude, dude. But the thing is, it's so polished, you shouldn't trust me. You may instinctively not trust me. Like I'm looking right at the camera. I'm making eye contact with the audience. I'm speaking without a script.
That's a little concerning like to people. Some people find that very off-putting because it doesn't have the, you know, like if I were just with my phone, I'm like, guys, let me just tell you what's going on. And I do that too. I usually do those in lives. Those will often engage a lot more because people's trust mechanism fires when they feel like they're on a FaceTime with someone instead of this very produced thing. So I struggle with that in terms of my own show. It's just, I'm a nerd and I like shit to look good.
And I look like shit at baseline, so having a nice camera and lighting. By the way, I gotta say this about your documentary, better left unsaid. Your suit that you wore in that, it was tailored like- Oh wow, thanks. It was- Guess what? It was not tailored, it was off the rack. Yeah, that was a coincidence.
I mean, I'm not gay, but if I were, I'd be like, me too. Is it all right? I'm going to quickly mute, turn off my mic, sorry, mute, turn off this for about 10 seconds and tell my wife that we're just wrapping up so that she knows. Absolutely. Absolutely. I want to respect your time too. I'll read some comments while you're doing that.
Tim Davis says, I wake up almost every night at 3 a.m., did an experiment with glucose monitor, noticed my glucose levels were crashing at every time every night. Diet at the right time resolved it, now it's only occasional. So Tim was talking about like his waking up in the middle of the night of anxiety was due to a physiological cause. Sorry, is it okay if I tell you a bit about my sleep quickly? Yeah, please do. So I've been fasting for the past some 74 hours or so into a fast.
When I fast I tend to not be able to sleep. I also find that my heart races faster even if I Even if I'm not thinking of an anxious thought at all my heart just seems to beat I don't know if that's correlated with the fasting or Is it is it a pure water fast that you're doing? Well, sometimes I have coffee you have coffee. Okay, but you're not getting electrolytes. You're not getting anything else Okay, so to some extent
The sleep deprivation may just simply be a hormonal hunger thing. It could also be that the sense of palpitations, the heart kind of racing that you have, it can sometimes be because your potassium is a little out of whack because just like a zero Gatorade. Well, yeah, Gatorade without any, and again, I'm not an expert in water fasting. So someone like Peter Attia, who's a friend of mine would be a good person to talk to.
The idea that there's a lot of things in, you know, in a 72 hour, let me see. So, you know, we're going to three days of that, you know, human body is pretty resilient. You can do that, but there will be these. Well, I'm about to eat, man. After this, I told you I'm going to go into bliss. I am going to eat. I know that I shouldn't do that after a long fast, but that's how I operate. Dude, that's how that's how we evolved. It's like nothing happens. I'm wondering, is this good for me or is bad for me going through it? It's somewhat like intermittent fasting, like a drastic fast overeat, drastic fast. I imagine that.
I imagine that that's plenty of what our ancestors did, though not all the time, but for plenty of the time because you would kill the gorge. Assuming you don't have an eating disorder that is going to be exacerbated by this, which is always a caveat, fasting can be wonderful for people. I think it's not anti-physiologic at all. I think there's plenty of at least reasonable level evidence that it's not harmful and it may be helpful for some people.
I myself do one meal a day as my sort of feeding window thing and that's the only way at 48 I keep from becoming morbidly obese because I love food so much. I am this exact same way one meal a day almost every single day because I cannot help my I am avaricious. I'm voracious. I'm rapacious You're using some big words that I don't understand and I'm gonna take that as a personal insult. All right
But I will say this, I'm a fat ass if left to my own devices. I will, you're exactly, and by the way, when in your, in your, in your documentary, when you showed your mom's cooking, I was like, Oh God, my parents are, are Parsi from Pune, India. And my mom, same thing, just the, I just, I could eat that all day and be like 500 pounds. Um, and so, so your sleep and your fasting, they do interact. And some of it is the fact, how often do you do the fasts?
Once a week, I'll fast for 48 hours. This one is 72 hours, but once a week about 48 hours. And then eat one meal a day. So anyone who's like, oh, you fast and your brain gets foggy. I mean, you started out foggy because you were tired and you've done a bunch of podcasts. But then, man, once you woke up, it was like, oh, shit. So whatever ketones you're burning now are affecting your brain. You energize me, man. You energize me. You take all the credit belongs to you. Trust me, because I've been speaking to a couple of people today, and you should have seen me just
and a torpor with dude sometimes mental and spiritual apathy sometimes when i have an in-person guest and i'm not feeling it it's like i'm in a different world like my mind is somewhere else and i'm like uh okay back to this happens rarely but it's really horrible because it feels terrible well you've taken your time out for me and then it's as if i'm not giving you your best i also well i also wonder see this is what i mean when i say constantly question myself
Because how much of my fasting is also self-sabotage? So one, because I'm vain and I want to keep thin. Two, because I'm filled with velocity and I want to eat. Three, because it's okay that I fail because I'm fasting and so therefore, therefore if I'm not up to par, I have an excuse. So that's not consciously there, but if I examine myself, I can imagine that that lurks just thinly veiled underneath.
Brother, it's like we're cut from the same cloth, man. So the reason I never prep for interviews very much
is partially so I have plausible deniability when it sucks. I'm like, well, you know, I just winged it. I, you know, I didn't really do anything. So yeah, I mean, next time if I, if I did something, it would have kicked ass. The mind and a lot of it's unconscious. You can bring it into consciousness and you shine a light on it. But, you know, I got to say, and now the only thing I'd say is that maybe research a little bit on your electrolyte situation. Is there something you can do within that fast? I'll try that.
Yeah, you know, especially potassium and sodium are often wasted early on in a fast as you switch from burning carbs to burning fat and going to ketosis. There's a diuretic effect where you do lose a lot of that. So a lot of times people talk about the keto flu when you're first going into ketosis. This idea that people feel really kind of crummy may be partially due to that aspect of it. Like Atiya and others have recommended
Someone mentioned THC. I'm wondering about dabbling in some of that. That also helps me sleep. THC helps tremendously, but apparently
THC while it reduces the sleep lag, like the time it takes to get to sleep, it disrupts your sleep cycle, but CBD doesn't contribute to sleep lag, but it helps your sleep cycle. Yeah, I've heard exactly that and I've experienced that with THC, that you go to sleep fine and then you wake up with this, you know, kind of dysphoric sense in the middle of the night a few times, at least I do. For me, I wake up in a bed of
Isn't it fascinating how our perception is so malleable?
Let me read a comment real quick while we're doing this. I wake up with the munchies says Jamie Vance. There it is. Lizette Paris is a supporter says, Oh, I feel like Indian food right now. Right. So do I. We're getting Korean food tonight. After the show, I'm going with my family. We're gonna go to
foster city and get some dope Korean food. On Facebook, Samantha Espionage says, I'm very open minded and will listen to the beliefs of others even if they contradict my own. I take both into consideration and if the opposing belief seems more logical than my own, then I'm not afraid to allow myself to adopt them. So that's what you consciously think, Samantha, that you're already ahead of most people. I would advise you to even look unconsciously and go, what part of me is resisting this? What part of me is triggered by this? What part of me won't let go or
the malleability of my own beliefs and it may be that you're you've already done that right which is wonderful but many of us haven't you know my unconscious is very resistant to a lot of things and i have to bring that resistance into conscious awareness you know shine a light on it you know they say like sunlight's the best disinfectant it's the same with consciousness making something that's automatic something that's now aware is is a huge asset so what were we talking about brother we were talking about um perception yeah so
The one interesting insight I've had that may not be an insight. So I rarely ever use THC anymore. When I was younger, it was a different subject. But now, occasionally, I'll do it as an experiment into consciousness. Like, what does this do? I'm not a fan of recreational drug use. It has to be for a particular purpose, like insight into reality or to help you sleep or whatever. Therapeutic.
Yeah, some kind of investigational purpose now, right? When I was young, it was recreational and that was not a good idea. So what I noticed with that is, you know, if Hoffman talks about our perceptual interface, his interface theory, which is we have a species-specific way of seeing the social network of consciousness around us, and it's evolved to allow us to reproduce. It's fitness payoffs. It's not seeing truth.
Well, what drugs do, like THC, like LSD, whatever, is they take that evolved interface and they shift it. So LSD may really just blow it out. Right. It's what you're saying that what we see on LSD may be partially what reality is truly like or distorted version. No, what I would argue is Hoffman's argument, which is reality is simply consciousness interacting with itself and we see it
in a constructed way that benefits us as a species to reproduce. So we construct it in a way that allows us to get food and have mates. Now what the drugs do is you don't see more reality or whatever. What you do is you see that same reality, the objective reality, which is this conscious agent network happening, manifesting, but you see it with a different interface. You might see it with an interface that
would be evolutionarily advantageous if X, Y, and Z. So what I find with THC, this is what I think is fascinating. You'll talk to those people, right, who are, and there's a lot of variation in our own interfaces, people with synesthesia who, you know, hear sounds or see sounds, things like that, or Hoffman gives the example of the chef who, whenever he tastes mint, he feels in his hand a cool column of glass.
Those are mutations in our interface. They're changes in our interface that at some point may become evolutionary advantageous. And we select for them. So what I think is with THC, there are those people who are like, bro, I just am so anxious at baseline. I can't sleep at baseline. I'm a total asshole. Like Joe Rogan will say this. I'm a complete asshole at baseline. I smoke some weed and I'm just a different person. I'm better. I'm calmer. I sleep better. I could do this all day every day and still function perfectly. What I suspect with them is,
their baseline interface
Unbelievable. But with that comes a sensitivity to thought and a self referential aspect that makes me very unhappy. Like I see myself from outside as this horrible, just evil, nasty thing and it's crippling. So it's a shift in our perception, a little frame shift and the dose tells you how far you shift and the kind tells you what you shift into. So if it's like LSD or THC or that's my theory. Now again, how do I prove it? Can't.
Yeah. Yeah. What have we not touched on? Was there something we were supposed to? There's a universe of things that we'll just have to do a follow-up. Yeah, we definitely will. You know, we were gonna, medicine and all that, that's a whole nother conversation. We talked about a lot of things. Okay, I have one question. I wrote it. Okay, someone said, I heard him talk on trigonometry recently, which I don't think is true. Were you on trigonometry? No, actually I wasn't. I saw that coming. Yeah, I don't think so. Perhaps they meant rebel wisdom.
Okay, excellent. He spoke of the problem of changing his opinion based on new information. Now see, we talked about grandstanding before. I think there's rational, it's almost like virtue signaling, there's rational signaling. I don't believe people when they say, I changed my mind based on new information. The reason why is that it's extremely hard to change your mind.
Not only that, but would you change your mind based on any new information? Are you saying that you have no other value system embedded? So for example, if the world told you through some truth mechanism that you should kill your wife or kill your dog, are you telling me that you're going to override your beliefs to follow what's rational? Is rationality the god? Why should you follow that if it leads you to destruction? So I saw that and I thought about
I don't believe people and I saw this Veritasium video once not to pick on Veritasium but Veritasium was in a university crowd holding the camera to himself and someone was saying how is it that you change your mind when you are presented with new beliefs and he's like well you know these beliefs you just you get new information you update them you just slot it in even though you don't like and I'm like you're so pretentious man firstly you don't think like that secondly it's not that easy thirdly maybe you shouldn't because well
You don't know where rationality alone will lead you. Rationality is like an arrow with no direction. You have to direct it, and that direction process isn't exactly rational. It's like pre-rational. Those were my thoughts, and I wanted to know what you thought about that. Dude, so how big of a Jonathan Haidt understanding do you have? Not much. Other than Big Five and political belief, that's it.
Right, right, right, right, right. Talking about the big five, the moral pallet, you know, fairness versus cheating authority versus subversion, etc. So his other big analogy, which I think speaks exactly what you're saying, is this. So, and I keep this here because I want to be reminded of it. The elephant and the rider. I'm surprised I'm a monkey on the elephant. Right? That would be better. It's just someone, one of my supporters sent me this and so I use it as an example. So thank you,
Patricia, I think, sent me this. So the elephant is our primitive emotional mind, what Daniel Kahneman would call system one. So it works on heuristics, emotion, feeling, intuition. Is that fast? Instant fast, yes. It's the fast system, exactly. So it happens, we share it with a lot of animals, it's highly conservative evolutionarily, ancient brain.
It works to make these snap judgments. It holds our deepest sort of biases and beliefs. It's partially genetic, it's partially conditioned, but it is what it is. And it's the thing when I say, oh, we've made a decision, you know, six seconds before we're aware of it. Often that's our elephant just making that decision unconsciously and feeding it up to this guy who is the rider of the elephant. That's our neocortex. So rational thought, math, moral reasoning,
Persuasion verbally, those kinds of things. The rider seems to be something reasonably unique to higher mammals. Probably self-referential thought occurs in that. It's slower, it's more deliberate, it takes more ATP to make it happen.
And the theory was, oh, we evolved the rider to control the elephant so that, you know, our rational thought overrides emotion. But look at the size differential. Like, who's really in charge? So, Haidt argues that the data actually shows that he's reviewed that the rider is not the president in this little consortium. It's the elephant's press secretary. Have you heard Ilmi Gokras, master in its emissary?
A little bit. And I saw that you'd interviewed him. That was the next thing on my list to watch. So I'm sure he kind of talks about this too. Same thing. All these roads converge because I think they're pointing at some truth. And the idea is that it's a press secretary because the elephant emotionally, belief-wise, has already decided. It then needs this rider to persuade others in the tribe that we're right, because our life depends on it. Hunting rights, breeding rights, food rights in a tribe of 100 people. Yeah, so evolutionarily,
this writer evolved as a persuasive tool. Well, now you weaponize that through social media, where everyone's got their elephant, they now have a like button to say my elephant agrees, and a comment field to go, here's what my writer thinks of that, a dislike button to say or an angry button to say my elephant disagrees and a comment field to attack. And none of it goes to how do I change my mind in the face of new data? Right? So when I say I've changed my mind, like for masks,
elephant response on mass early on was, I'm a doctor. This is bullshit. Like having the public wear a diaper on their face is dumb. It's not going to do anything because people don't use it correctly. They're going to touch their face. At that time, I thought this was also fomitically transmitted, meaning a lot on surfaces has been disproven. So I was telling people in videos, listen,
I think wearing a mask outside as a public person, unless it's an N95 or a surgical grade mask, is a dumb idea. And I don't want you doing those things because you're going to hurt my tribe, which is the frontline healthcare professionals who don't have enough PPE and they're seeing this, right? And community spread isn't as high yet. Well, when that shifted for me was having some guests on the show like Monica Gandhi who said, listen, even off camera, she was telling me, listen,
We don't have data that shows that masks work. That's the problem. We don't. We have certain suggestions that it reduces the inoculum of the virus so that even a dumb diaper on your face is going to reduce the sheer number of viral particles. So you may then turn a ICU case into a asymptomatic case because there's some data to suggest that viral inoculum, especially in other diseases, matters for severity of illness. And so then I said, OK, this is different now. So now anything on your face might reduce
you down to an asymptomatic case. And so then I said, listen, guys, I think probably I don't believe in mass mandates because my libertarian elephant is like, probably not a good idea. But maybe we should say that this is not a bad a bad thing. And if it keeps us bends the curve so that my colleagues in the hospital can survive this and we do okay, then maybe that's a good thing. So that was an example of changing even publicly what I was saying. The other thing that I changed, and this was pure bias in the beginning to that I had to recognize, I had a bias, like you said in the beginning towards the authorities.
Like wait, CDC is saying it's not a big deal. WHO is not calling this a pandemic. The Chinese government scientists are saying, okay, we like what they're doing here. They caught this early. So I did a video where it's like, guys, this is what could happen. I don't think it is because the Chinese have got this under control. It's a stupid. It's still available. I don't delete videos.
It's
But it still hurts. It still hurts our belief structure. Like if you told me tomorrow, man, this vaccine that I've been talking about publicly is harming people, making them infertile, doing all this other stuff. Now we have data, it's incontrovertible, or as close to incontrovertible as we can. I would want to die. It would feel so horrible because my belief structure is, no, actually I've looked at this data, I've used all my tools of belief and science on it, and I'm very convinced that this is safe. Something crazy has happened.
Okay, the first thing is do is got to do a video and say, I was wrong about this. And that's going to hurt, like it's going to be the worst. But you have to, you have to accept that level of pain. And but I think you're right. I think it's very easy to virtue signal, I changed my mind, look at me, I'm a better human, and really not be changing your mind at all. In fact, if anything, your fundamental belief is I go wherever the popular wisdom is, or whatever will get me views. And you haven't changed that belief at all. So by changing this belief, you're just going with that flow. And that's something you have to be very
It's a reason why I'm not a great interviewee, despite the fact that we've been speaking for quite some time, because I don't have any staunched beliefs, at least not that I'm conscious of. As soon as I put up a proposition, I can see its flaws. And I also guide myself or try to by this, I think it's Arthur Kane who said, only the shallowest of minds can believe that in
great controversy one side is mere folly so when it comes to anti-lockdown or anti-masks if there's a large enough amount of people saying it I want to hear what is your best argument and perhaps you're not art perhaps what you're saying is false but the meaning behind it is correct and you're not articulate enough to put it forward so for example I I find it strange that the
COVID is such an anomaly, man, for many reasons. I find it strange that it's the right that's anti-lockdown, when the left should be about liberties. And I also find it strange that the left is for universally pro-abortion and the right is anti-abortion, when it doesn't seem to map on exactly. And the reason why is, think of Jainism. Jainism
is about, like you mentioned, I don't even want to kill a cockroach. I bring that outside. Janists, who you would think of as the most hippie-like, left-leaning people, are complete anti-abortion because it's also life. And so then, is being pro-abortion on the left, or is it that your team somehow decided this through some other process and you're identifying with the team? And that's why it's such a dangerous game to say, I am left, or I am right. What are the odds that
The 35 tenants of the right and the 45 of the left, or whatever it may be, are ones that you align with. You're you. It's a difficult game to attach yourself to a team. You said you're not a good interviewee. I'm partially not a good interviewer. No, no, no, no. So forget about that. My producer Logan
was telling me before the
He's just absolutely tremendous asking these questions, and it'll generate conversation. I'm like, that was my plan, because watching your stuff is the same thing. Because you know what, actually being a good interviewee is boring as fuck, because it means that again, you have a lot to say, but not a lot of questions, not a lot of openness, etc. Sometimes I find I'm a better interviewee than an interviewer, because I've been thinking about this stuff so much that I want to just tell you all about it. And then the idea is, well, where am I open to these ideas? Now, diving into something you said, this is the centerpiece of what I call this alt-middle thinking.
In my tribe of people, we have a lot of conservatives, a lot of libertarians, a lot of liberals, a couple of Marxists, not a lot of very far-right people, but people that are very libertarian. And they all, we talk about it in terms of Jonathan Haidt's moral taste buds. So when you think about abortion, et cetera, by the way, remind me to tell you if we have time about the video I did about abortion, that, boy, you can see how that triggers the tribal behavior of in-group out-group.
So long story short, you have these taste buds, liberty versus oppression that you value, fairness versus cheating, loyalty versus betrayal, authority versus subversion, care versus harm. So in other words, you know, care versus self-explanatory. And the sixth one actually is, because there's a little subtlety there, is sanctity versus degradation. This is from Jonathan Haidt.
Jonathan Haidt, in his book, The Righteous Mind, he lays out why good people disagree on politics and religion. And what's interesting is each of these issues can be filtered through your moral palette that you're often born with, like you have these certain values. So liberty versus oppression. So it turns out liberals tend to really emphasize, they all have all six, but they emphasize two, which is fairness versus cheating, and care versus
Yeah, care versus harm. And that makes sense, because then you go, okay, they don't like rich people taking advantage of stuff. They want to take care of poor people. These are the values they project, social justice, etc. Conservatives actually have those, but then they really value loyalty versus betrayal. Look how the Republicans tend to be quite unified. Even when Trump does some crazy stuff, they're like, but he's our guy, right? And then you have liberty versus oppression. Well,
Yeah, so it's a more libertarian value. And sanctity versus degradation, it turns out liberals and conservatives parse this quite differently. So a conservative will look at sanctity versus degradation in terms of religion versus atheism, or in terms of abortion, the sanctity of life versus the despoilment of that through abortion. The liberal would take that same moral palette and go sanctity of my body, my choice, versus
you know, some state invading that sanctity with a vaccine or with me not allowing to do what I want with my unborn fetus. So they can all kind of parse issues through is now you then weaponize that through tribal behavior. So the left has this ideological checklist, what Jordan Peterson calls ideological possession. So I just I don't I don't even know how I feel about some of these things. But my tribe votes this way.
And the right has a similar kind of set of doctrines. So when you ask the question, I don't understand why the right does this and that. Some of that is ideological possession. Some of that is they do tend to value these more. There's something in veteran. Something. Yeah, exactly. And then there was a Oh, so the abortion piece that I did. So I did like one of those direct to camera things. It was when Alabama's state legislature was, you know, intervening in abortion in some way, that a lot of physicians were saying, you know, this is a bunch of men can't
I did a video where I said, hey, I agree with that. This is a medical procedure. This is how it's done. It should be the right of women to make the choice with their doctor and with whatever religious belief they have, etc. It shouldn't be a legislator doing this, in my opinion, and this is the thing. But let me tell you a story about why I understand
why people would be opposed to abortion on a deep moral level.
It's
So I got a ton of messages from people saying, that's the most cogent I've ever heard. That's how I feel as a doctor who performs abortions. But then I got hate from a lot of abortion doctors and a lot of very lefty lefters who are like, you're basically normalizing violence against abortion clinics by giving any nuance. Right, right, I know.
And I was like, I felt attracted, like attacked by this tribe of healthcare professionals. I was like, oh my God, but I didn't remove it. In fact, I did another video where I talked about it more, but man, it's rough, right? The moral pallet. They want, they dislike the other side so intensely that with your nuance, there's a part of your argument that can be used on the side that they dislike. And so they want to discount the argument entirely. Yeah. Yeah. False equivalence again, bears its ugly head.
man Kurt are you pooped or what bro? I'm looking forward to being that and going to sleep at some point and eating so let's wrap it up yeah yeah thank you so much man dude this was uh this was a real joy yeah yeah me too me too I wasn't expecting to go on for more than an hour and it's been two and almost almost three I'm so sorry I know you're starving and you're tired and please I wanted to hear what you have to say
Tell your wife I'm deeply sorry and that my wife hates me just as much, because I do the same thing. So at least we have that kind of true equivalency. So thank you so much. Do the same thing as what is going on over Extended? Yeah. Come home, you know, we have plans and I'm like, but just a couple more minutes, I'm doing a show or whatever it is. So it is what it is. Brother, it's just a joy. Hopefully we can do this again at some point in the future if you feel inclined.
Just let me know and we'll make it happen. We've never done a live format like this with Zoom. Oh, great. I'm honored to be the first. Oh, man. It's really awesome to have you. You're the perfect guest for this. Not a guest, it's a conversation. So thank you. Thank you. And we'll connect very soon. And to everybody who's watching, thanks again to Kurt. Check out his stuff. So his podcast, his show on YouTube is called Theories of Everything. I've put links in.
His documentary is called Better Left Unsaid and it's a ride. It is a ride. Is the director's cut available publicly? On betterleftunsaidfilm.com exclusively. So if you get it from iTunes or Google or Voodoo, firstly, much of the money or some of the money goes toward them. Whereas from the website, most, if not all the money, go toward the filmmakers. There's some split between different places, but you also on the website get access to the director's cut, I believe for free.
If you just buy the regular version and you don't get access to the director's cut, find my email, it's online somewhere, and email me and I'll send you the link. Just send me your receipt. That's awesome. And you funded this thing with Kickstarter, Indiegogo stuff, that sort of thing? Yeah. That's great. And it's personal money. It's really well done, you guys. So if you want to dive into the craziness that's going on in society in a way that's so unique, watch the director's cut.
really watch the director's cut if you're into this because it is it goes really deep it's a it's brilliant so thank you so much guys and until next time i'm going to figure out how to stop this kurt you can sign off you are the bomb i also want to make a quick amendment it's when i said personal money my brother invested heavily into the film so i just want to make sure that that said i don't want to misrepresent so thank you family
Family and you are identical as far as I'm concerned. That's how I see it So yeah, thanks for making the clarification, but that's awesome. It's really wonderful to have support, right? There's a deep gratitude that arises from that Like I might supporters on Facebook and stuff that pay for all this equipment on YouTube and locals. They're the best They got some great equipment. Okay, man. I gotta get going. Thank you I'll sign off and you can speak to the audience if you like
I'll wrap it up, Kurt. Thank you. Guys for the recording. Is it all right if I just talk to you quickly about that? You'll send me it to Dropbox. I will send you a Dropbox version of this very long file that we'll export over the next two hours and then I'll send you a link and then you can put it together however you like. Great. Thank you. I love it, brother. Thanks. Have a great one, man. It's been a pleasure. I appreciate it. Thank you, man. Likewise. Guys. That was intense. We've been talking for almost three hours. That's crazy.
Wow. So, you know, we started out kind of slow and got in the groove as he's been really sleep deprived and doing podcast after podcast. Let's take a few comments right now, just because I want to wrap up with your voice, because I think that's important. And we didn't get enough of that in the thing because we were so into ourselves. Thank you, Anne, for your support on YouTube and Andrew Dunbar. Actually, Andrew Dunbar says the sanctity versus degradation dichotomy also applies to how some on the right view gun rights. Totally true.
If you don't understand how someone who holds opposing views sees the world morally, you don't understand them at all. And you're going to vilify them because you're going to see them through your own moral matrix, which is not how they see the world. And you need to understand that our moral matrix allows us to do what we perceive is good in the world. We filter it through that. So everybody, most people are trying to be good
which is why you can assume good intent. It used to be I would get very triggered by people with different political views and I would assume them they were just bad because I was using my moral matrix, my moral taste buds as the litmus test or the filter. Now I get excited to hear opposing views because I want to know what the moral matrix is it's coming from and honor it. You go, oh God, you're trying to be good and this is how you see being good. Okay, I can't be mad at you. I disagree for these reasons, but let's have a conversation. What do we agree on?
morally, what do we agree on we want to see in the world, right? And then you can start from a consensus, sort of common human, common humanity, politics, instead of this identity, where we're all separate fighting each other as tribes. That's really what a lot of identity politics that used to be a great thing in the civil rights movement has devolved into this, our group existential battle against everybody else that's a power struggle trying to oppress us. Well, what if we just assume good intent and try our best instead of vilifying other people because of the way they're born?
Right. Born white or born Asian or born whatever. Like forget that dude. That's horseshit. That's the definition of discrimination. June Black says, I felt so bad for him being so tired at the beginning. Glad he came around. Yeah, dude. I really hang on a second. I just, there we go. I'm still recording. That's good. I felt really bad for him. And I felt like what, you know, we were scheduled to do this and
I was like, am I torturing this guy? Cause you know, we didn't even know what we were going to talk about. We had no agenda. You know, we connected via email and, and, uh, I was worried that it was just going to go off the rails real fast. And, uh, it didn't, it went on the rails, which was off the rails. So it was a lot of fun for me. Yeah. It was intense. Right. Jonna. Um, George Shepherd, my fulcrum is different, uh, from so-and-so's fulcrum. That's a good way to look at it. Like, right.
Where's your fulcrum? That's great. Ashley Stewart, I feel the exact same way. I never learned from people who think exactly like I do. You can't. It's just a kind of group think. Jamie Vance, how do you break through to people who allow their moral compass to dictate a conversation? I struggle greatly with helping people see that everything is true but partial. So that idea of alt middle that everything's true but partial is a kind of moral assertion. It's a kind of meta belief about belief. So I think
I think accepting that person as they are is one thing. This is how they're showing up. It's the best they can do at this point. And then gently, this is very hard, gently nudging through conversation some ideas that might open them up a little to, first of all, maximizing whatever level they're at in terms of their thinking, and then opening them to whatever that adjacent level is. And I see it happen again and again. I see it. It's not impossible.
It's not that we change our minds, it's that our minds grow. They transcend and include what came before to use Ken Wilber's language. You know, it's a beautiful thing. Oh, how kind of you. Theories of everything. Kurt Jaimengal commented. Thank you, Zubin. Can't hear you, but typing to say thank you. Kurt, you're the best, man. What's Kurt's full name? Kurt Jaimengal. And it's in the description for the video, Dorothy Morrison. Afterwards, you can see it there.
J-A-I-M-U-N-G-A-L. He's awesome, really. I love people who think like that and who are self-reflective and very, very intellectual, but able to also relax into a kind of beyond intellectualism. It's really key. Sophia on YouTube says, the ego has a lot of power, always reasserting
Through and into survival mechanisms. So Sophie, let's think about ego for a second I don't know why I'm still talking but talking for three hours and I got to be somewhere but I'm into this now. It's a kind of a flow state. Oh My neck's gonna hurt tomorrow. Um We tend so in spiritual circles in particular in meditation circles and those kind of circles that look at this stuff
The ego tends to be objectified as something that's there. It's like this entity that we need to fight or we need to overcome or that's doing these bad things to us or so on. And I think when you approach it from that angle, I'm not saying you're doing this. I'm just saying, I'm speaking, just expositing on this. When we approach ego from that angle, we turn it into an object. What's the only thing that can turn other things into objects? Ego. So my friend Angelo says, when you go to war with the ego,
It's the ego going to war with itself. It's a very subtle, it's a pattern of conditioned thoughts, beliefs, and perceptual distortions that are just happening, just like everything else is just happening. It's just happening. And what happens is it binds attention so that we think this is it. And the ego knows us better than we know ourselves. It's had millions of years to evolve with us.
It knows our deepest, darkest thoughts and knows how to manipulate us. Now, again, I'm objectifying it, but let's just say that pattern of energy is really good at tricking attention into following thoughts about self and so on. Creating the sense of self, this person behind my eyes that's seeing objects around me as separate, instead of just everything as one thing, as Kurt called it, one vellum, one substrata, one thing.
One reality and the home by the way, Jody Jacobs on Facebook says, I stayed the full three hours because I love this conversation. Thank you both. Jody, that makes me so, Oh, I just love that. I love that. That really warms me up my ego, but even beyond ego, there's something like there's something in our authentic bits, right?
that when you connect with another person, like we connected during this conversation, you and I and Kurt and all that, it's just a sense of just elevation like, oh, that's beautiful. That's humanity at its most connected, right? Even if we don't agree on everything. Yeah, Jose, check out his movie. So his movie is crazy. It's like real experimental and weird and
It doesn't seem like it's all going to come together. And then at the end, it's kind of like, what? So you got, you got to check it out. It's some crazy shit. Um, all right. Now I probably, I probably should go because I can hear this box trying to record and it's probably running out of space. Hold on. Yeah, it's crazy. It's still actually recording. I don't know. I didn't know it had that much space on that card. Um, Kajido ergo ego. That's right.
George Shepard, I think therefore I am ego. Ego itself is a friend. It's a pattern of energy that's kept us alive. Its goal is to protect us from a seeming external world. It understands that we're separate, and it says, okay, as a separate thing, this is how we stay safe. It doesn't know better. It can't know better. It's not a thing. This pattern of energy, we should honor it. We should thank it.
We should be grateful for it, but we should recognize it for what it is. We should recognize when it's trying to co-opt and turn everything into a story. You know, the story of the one who woke up, the story of the one who meditates, the story of the one who's embarking on a spiritual journey, whatever it is. So anyways, Jean Black, it was three hours, didn't seem like it. Man, I can't believe you guys are with
With us this long Ashley, same thing. You guys are crazy. I do need to hydrate Sandra. Thank you. I'm tired. Samantha, man, you guys are great. You guys are the core audience because there was like, you know, about a hundred and some on each platform the whole time. You guys are really the core hardcore devotees. And I I'm so grateful for you. All right. I got to stop doing this. It's an affectation, but I love it. When I went to Thailand when I was younger,
This was a very Buddhist society and everybody would just do this. And I got in the habit of that. And it's a kind of a, I see you as me and a gratitude thing at the same time. It's really lovely. All right. I'd rather do it than shake hands, honestly. All right. I love you guys. Now I got to figure out how to end this. I'm going to say bye to YouTube first. So bye bye, YouTube. Till next time. And then
I gotta figure out Facebook. I think the way I'll do that is I'll fade to black and then I'll end when it ends. All right, guys?
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"text": " Hey, believe me, so am I. So it'll be a conversation. Let me do one thing here. So what I was thinking for the live, and you can tell me what your aesthetic is. By the way, I watched your whole fucking documentary, the two hour one. Oh, man. Holy shit. Hats off to you. It's experimental."
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"text": " Oh, fuck yeah, it's off the rails. It's really fucking intense and crazy and awesome. And you said one thing, well, we should save it for the show. What I was thinking is I'll set it to speaker mode so that whoever's talking gets full screen, just because the 69 side by side is a little jankity for the live, I think. At some point I can put it side by side just to mix it up, but I don't know, what do you think? Just be in the moment."
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"text": " Great. Now let me think if there's anything else. Okay, now, so the only other tricky thing, I do this all myself, so it gets a little... So we're going live to YouTube and Facebook. I've got it all teed up and I'm gonna share it on Locals as well. So let me do a few clicks here and then we'll just go live. What do you think? Yes, go ahead. I'm gonna let you introduce yourself if that's okay, because that'll just be the best. Yeah, yeah, yeah. All right, so we're gonna do publish."
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"text": " All right. Theories of everything live. And then we're going to do... Oh, viewers are waiting. Look at that. Let's do... How do I make this work? I got to go to Castor. I got to turn on this. That's how we simulcast is using a company called Castor. The cheap solution to simulcast. There we go. So we're connecting to Facebook Live. Perfect. Let me make sure Facebook Live is where it is."
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"text": " All right. And then I'm going to go live in a couple clicks here. So here we go. YouTube. Facebook. And let's see how this works, guys. Give it a second, and we'll see if we're live. It looks like we is on Facebook and YouTube. Give me a second here. Guys, welcome to the show. It's the ZDogg and Kurt show today. Kurt Geimengall, welcome, brother."
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"text": " Thank you so much for having me on, man. I'm extremely glad to be here. Dude, this is a conversation I've been so excited to have. So from parts of my audience that don't know who Kurt is, I watch his videos on YouTube because he interviews the kind of people that I deeply care about hearing from. And he goes so deep. I'm talking about like the Donald Hoffman's, Bernardo Castrop's,"
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"text": " talking to Rupert Spira, which was a ridiculous like three or four hour conversation and I watched all of it and was just like this the whole time. Kurt is a documentary filmmaker and just a can you tell me a little bit about yourself brother? Yeah, I'm a filmmaker first and foremost."
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"text": " with a background in math and physics and I've always been interested in what are called theories of everything which is a somewhat technical physics term though it's now in common parlance and it usually in the physical sciences means the unification of gravity with the standard model as well as an explanation for other phenomenon such as what is going on inside of a black hole which you think would be answered by a quantum theory of gravity but not necessarily what is the beginning of the universe there's differences as to what a theory of everything"
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"text": " Constitutes doesn't matter you get the vague you get the overview as for what I do with the channel as I explore those because I've always been interested in theories of everything and luckily I have some I have some mathematical and physics background so I can do so with a certain level of depth and I like to question as deep as I possibly can the guests that I speak to so some of them have been"
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"text": " They range from theoretical physicists to people who are espousers of the idea that consciousness is primary I Explore theoretical physics free will consciousness and God like God. Okay, that sounds like woo, but Depends on what the definition is That's the channel Do you guys see why I love him like like in a like want to marry him kind of way so this these are exactly the same things I'm interested in and what's that what's interesting Kurt is like"
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"text": " You know, I didn't have the physics and math background that you have, and I'm certainly not a documentary filmmaker. But, oh, damn it, hold on, let me turn off that noise. And also, don't be put off by the fact that I'm staring down at the laptop occasionally off at you and at the camera because I'm looking at people's comments, too. I'm impressed that you've set up your camera such that the eye line is aligned with me. So it looks like you're looking at me, whereas me, I'm pointed downward. Because the lens is up here."
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"text": " It's one of those things that I've had to work on for a long time trying to figure it out. What's weird is it's actually off putting to people on Zoom who are used to Zoom culture where it's kind of like, hey, Kurt, how's it going? Yeah, things are good, right? And then suddenly you're getting this weird amounts of eye contact with a background that isn't a fake green screen Zoom background and people are just a little unnerved. Actually, this is something I wanted to ask you about because we can talk about the theories of everything stuff, which is important, this idea of"
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"text": " Is there a unifying structure and conceptual framework that we can understand everything with, or is it an infinite regress and that kind of thing? But even before that, what's interesting is since the pandemic started, this medium that we use has just exponentially blown up. Did you see your channel really getting more engagement post-pandemic?"
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"text": " It was started during the pandemic, we're not posted, but yes, there's a huge craving for discussions that are about the fundamental nature of reality, and perhaps that's because people are philosophically destabilized, they're in a mentally insecure place, and I know I am. Lubricous ground with regard to belief, at least for me. It's variable in a straddle."
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"text": " And so people are perhaps looking for certainty and that's why they come to these channels. Though if you're looking for any answers, I assure you I have virtually none and the answer to almost any question that Zubin poses to me will be met with a dubious, I don't know, like I'm dubious about my own dubiousness even. That dubiousness about our own dubiousness is this kind of meta-awareness or"
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"text": " and bringing it back to what you were talking about with the pandemic, I found the same thing. I think people are really fundamentally shook by the fact that society is nothing as stable as they thought it was, that we're actually in an incredibly fragile interconnected world, that a blockage in the Suez Canal ripples out and causes my inability to wipe my ass with toilet paper."
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"text": " It's also inspirational in a sense because it means that your loving nature to the degree that you express it and your truth-telling ability or at least I would say it's more important to not lie. Peterson has this rule about tell the truth or at least not lie. I would flip that and say don't lie instead of telling the truth because it's extremely easy to delude yourself into thinking what you're doing is truth-telling when actually you're"
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"text": " You're trying to win an intellectual battle or show how truth-telling you are by saying to someone a mean comment. Well, either way, that your loving nature can spread far beyond you in the same way that something malicious can spread to you. So it's a twin of both inspiration and horror. This idea of not lying"
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"text": " I'm not looking forward to this ending. I actually wanted to speak with you for like three hours if I can. But after this, Zubin, I am going to just... I'm gonna feel like a junkie that just put heroin in my body and just dissolve in a sea of bliss for hopefully a week or two weeks because I need a break. Okay, we can talk about that after getting to the four forms of knowing there's participatory, procedural,"
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"text": " I'm going to pick on some people, but please, these two YouTubers, I love you. Okay, so there's Artificial Intelligence with Lex Friedman, and then there was Modern Wisdom with Chris Williamson. And then what they do is they remove the prior, and then just they omit that and keep their name. I am toying with doing the opposite, because I don't want this to be about me, so maybe eventually it'll be theories of everything. Obviously there's some of me that's doing"
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"text": " a bit of branding by keeping my name in the channel, but at some point I'd like to truncate that. Either way, the whole point of the channel is to explore theories of everything, so I'm deeply ensconcing myself in these theories. They're not trivial, not trivial in the least. In fact, try reading three pages of what Chris Langdon has written. That took me a day to get through three pages, and then it gets"
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"text": " gets quicker obviously as you get familiar with the terminology but I'm trying to understand these and so I was talking to someone who's a prominent youtuber and he was saying hey Kurt your channel has less subscribers but more views how I said it's like luck and then work extreme amount of work and he got offended at the extreme amount of work aspect he said well my work doesn't drain me I just listen to them I listen to guests on podcasts I go for"
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"text": " I do it while I meditate or while I'm doing the dishes. In fact, it invigorates me. And it was as if he was offended that I said that the work that I do drains me. And I do think what I'm doing right now, the way that I'm doing it is unhealthy, obviously, because I'm barely able to articulate a sentence here. But I don't see right now, I don't see another way around this, given the goal of deeply trying to understand these theories of everything."
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"text": " So that affects my sleep at times. Luckily, Zubin, after this, man, I just, I'm going, I'm going to rest for like, I'm going to hibernate for a little while. Man, I, how old are you, Kurt? Can I ask? Yeah, sure. How old do I look? You're not going to offend me. Oh man, you look like you're in your twenties, dude. No, I'm 32."
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"text": " Really? Well, dude, so you're still 32 to me is it is is very young. And when I was your age, my mind was so overactive, and I was like you, very diligent and very wrapped in the intellectual aspects, the thinking process and the making the connections. And if I closed my eyes, a million thoughts and a million connections. And with that came with that kind of"
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"text": " capacity comes high anxiety. So sleep was not there. It just didn't happen. And the, the, that sort of phenotype of person, I kind of see it in you when I see your interviews, because I can tell, I think most of the audience can tell that you've put a shit ton of work into these guests. Like the fact that you can talk for, you know, three or four hours to somebody who's esoteric to begin with, right, is, is pretty remarkable."
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"text": " There's no answer for that right away. The answer starts to emerge as you become more. Absolutely. I agree. Yeah. If I were to tell you, bro, you just need to realize that you're just pure consciousness, man, and these thoughts are just going across the sky like clouds and you can watch them. Good luck with that. Try that. Just try that. At this stage, we are identified with the thought stream and the thought stream is everything."
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"text": " and in a way that's awesome, because that's how we, like the guy who was offended by the amount of diligence, you'd really want to introspect and go, hey, why is that? Is he threatened by someone who can work hard and is talented, or is he more really convinced that his way is the only way? I'll tell you, when you tell me that, I go, ah, that's why, it's a combination of things, why your stuff is so good. I have, at this age, I'm 48,"
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"text": " So it took me, I don't know how many decades to release. How old are you? Sorry. I'm 48. So it took me however many decades to release this fixation that I had on hyper diligence as a way to get by. And, but I needed it. If I didn't have it, I wouldn't have the tool tool set that I have to do what I do. And now what I do is I try to drop into,"
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"text": " It used to be I would try not to be. I'd try to be whatever anyone wanted, which was very, it was very ego dystonic. It felt very wrong, but yet you'd get the dopamine burst from whatever validation that came from doing that."
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"text": " It really took a lot of time for me to find that way. And I'm not saying that's your path, but I think that I'm very sympathetic to what you're going through. It's very hard, very, very hard. Your documentary, by the way, for people who have not seen it, it really speaks to who you are. There's so many gems in there of kind of getting at who Kurt is right now that it's absolutely a fascinating thing to watch."
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"text": " And when you talk about your parents, I thought that was fascinating because I resonated with one of the things you said, and I don't know if you said this consciously or as just part of who you are, you said, you know, I really, the idea that they may not be around to kind of see what I've accomplished and that kind of thing. I'm like, that's, that's an immigrant thing, man. Like for me, like this idea that so much of my life I lived, like, what am I going to do to, to show my parents that I'm worthy of being a kid of theirs? And"
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"text": " And then at some point something snaps. I think maybe you do actually accomplish enough or you let it go, but then suddenly it's like, how can I show you I'm just like doing as little as possible and just trying to be me? You know, cause I think that's ultimately what we all, you know, what, what I was looking for, but yeah, I gotta change my headphones and I want to hear you through this stream of consciousness. Just give me a second. All right. Yeah, of course. So while you're doing that, I'm going to look at some comments here. Um, boy, there's a lot of comments. Uh,"
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"text": " Too much at one time, try separating the now to what can wait says Ann Cairns. So that's always that's good advice for anyone. It's very hard for an autonomic mind because we're not really we see. So here's one of the things that I thought of, you know, when I was hearing you talk about this, there is for me when that happens. Oh, yeah, sure, sure, sure. Can you hear me now, though, or no? Now you can hear me. Yeah. All right, we're going to find out."
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"text": " Okay, so one thing you said when you talked about this thought storm that you have at night that prevents you from sleeping. I actually think of that as a storm of thought. For many people, myself as one of these, we hold ourselves accountable for having the thought storm and it wraps a series of meta beliefs around"
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"text": " What's actually happening? So thoughts are coming and then we go, these thoughts shouldn't be coming so fast. I should be sleeping right now. Why can't I turn the thoughts off? Why am I having these thoughts? I'm somehow a bad person or I'm not good enough or whatever. And that adds another layer because as, as you probably know from talking to so many people that you've talked to, we don't author our thoughts. In fact, any level of investigation can kind of reveal pretty quickly that these thoughts arise. They may be from causes and conditions, but we're not the author of them. In other words,"
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"text": " Yeah, we should definitely talk about that. That illusion of control, it creates a kind of suffering. It's a kind of a meta suffering on top of the suffering of identifying with the thoughts. So it's very hard to tease those things out. It's only recently that I've been able to watch my mind enough with a lot of help from different resources to go, oh, look what's happening. This is a thought storm."
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"text": " that our decisions are based upon the prior conditions and these are also not within our control. I would say this, I'm actually kind of partial to the Buddhist idea of dependent origination, that everything happens because of causes and conditions that aren't simple. It's not just, I lift up the cup, therefore this happens. It's more like the entire web is connected in ways that even the superest supercomputer could never predict yet."
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"text": " and that then unified vibration of stuff happening affects what thought arises next. Have you heard of Wolfram's concept of computational irreducibility? I haven't. Okay, so what it is, Wolfram thinks that this is the origin of free will. Computational irreducibility means that a system is"
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"text": " Right, okay, well then he would say that that's the origin of free will. It sounds similar to what you're saying. Okay, I love that and I'll tell you why because I think there's, I don't know if it's fMRI data or what, but human minds simulate out what they're going to do. And in fact, I think Sam Harris has talked about this. If I go, I want to pick up this cup"
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"text": " brain damage, drugs, whatever, that put us at that level. So free will becomes this intensely complex thing to even think about. And one thing I want to say is, if you've ever had a meditative experience, and it's not really meditative, it's more a non-dual experience. And what I mean by that is, and I can actually try to put myself in this headspace even now,"
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"text": " there is just seeing. So this cup is just this self-knowing, self-illuminating happening. Now, when you drop into that state, the self cannot be found. There's no I having the experience. Experience is experiencing. Appearance is appearance-ing. And that feels like a kind of sense of agency that is very different"
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"text": " You could say it this way, and again, even this is not doing it justice, and people who've had this experience are going to be laughing at me going, this asshole's trying to explain this in words, and you can't. I understand. I mean, I can see. Yeah, it's very tough. You can think of it this way. Pain is just, it's a self-illuminating process. In other words, it's a vibrating field of experience that just is in and of itself without the need for a subject."
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"text": " The thing is to come from that state and then try to describe it is absolutely not possible. All you can do is point with words to evoke that natural state in people, but even that you have to be really good at that. Like Rupert's very good at that. There are people that can point very directly. Muji on YouTube is very, very good at pointing very directly. Adyashanti might be good at pointing very directly. And when you experience it and people experience it in flow state,"
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"text": " I disappeared and things were just happening. It was this just beautiful flow. And all they come back and go, I want that again. Because when you experience it, you have this weird intuition. And again, who is this you at language will fail us. There's an intuition that this is what everybody's been talking about and seeking throughout all time. When we look at any spiritual or wisdom pursuit. And I've only had sort of unstable"
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"text": " short-term glimpses of this and when I've come back I've been like oh the ego immediately reasserts itself and goes oh I'm the guy that had that experience that was dope I'm gonna tell stories about it right it's really interesting but in the moment you're just like it's just pure wonder personless just oh and and then you come back and the mind comes and tells a story about it because it has to there's nothing else it can do he has no words for it"
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"text": " You made an argument as to why we shouldn't experience pain when we're in that state. You used the word vibration. I don't recall what the exact statement was, but why can't we not use that same argument to say that even the feeling of bliss when you're in that state is an illusion and there's no bliss either? So I would put it this way. All that is in that state is what is. So the raw experience, the unfiltered reality of what's happening at that moment,"
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"text": " in now to no one and that's the other thing is time is not even if there's no conceptualization of time so it's just all happening as a kind of a wave right now now that can sound disconcerting and actually anyone who's done psychedelics at any point may have had experiences like this and then come back to sobriety and said oh man i was just tripping balls but what you may have touched into is the timeless nature of"
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"text": " raw experience without the conceptual overlay and what that feels like to a mind when it comes back is, oh, I was tripping balls, right? But in reality, it's really one of the most natural, it's probably the natural state prior to mind imposing itself, in my opinion, because I can only speak from my own experience. Well, you can't speak from your own experience if there's no you. So when you say that, that's just a linguistic device. It's a linguistic device, exactly."
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"text": " By the way, Kurt, the non-dual people do these linguistic gymnastics around trying to not use the word I and all that. That's dumb. I think language is designed for a we space, right? So you have to use language to try to describe something undescribable, and all you can do is point in the direction. Only you can kind of have the experience. And by you, even that, you see where the language fails pretty quickly."
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"text": " Are you of the belief that what lies at the immaterial fundamental level is something like a non-dual vellum, just this one sheet, and it's undifferentiated? It's so hard to make metaphysical, ontological claims about the nature of reality without invoking belief, because you said it there, belief. Is it your belief? And belief is another thought, it's another conceptual label on experience."
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"text": " I would say this. From an intellectual side, I've been uncompelled by the materialist paradigm. Feel free to interrupt me. Yeah, I was going to say you mentioned that belief is a conceptual thought. I don't buy that. I don't think that that's the case. I think that we think it is, and I think that's part of the problem. For example, if you say, I believe that I'm in a"
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"text": " I believe this stove is not hot. But then you say, well, put your hand on it then. It's red. And then you're like, no, no, I'm not going to. I would say you believe with your body. Your actions belie your beliefs. So what you say with your mouth doesn't match your actions, and your actions are your true test of belief. And if it's embodied, then your beliefs aren't simply concepts, aren't simply abstractions. So the unconscious response of the body"
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"text": " the vibrating temperature field of that experience, which the mind would then say, this is terrible, you need to stop now you're dying. And you would then smell the burning flesh, which would be a pure sensory experience. So in other words, there's a conceptualization that the mind does to raw data from the sense field that's necessary. And it's so fundamental to us being human that you're saying, well, I think it's more fundamental than that is not wrong."
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"text": " And I think that look, look, Kurt, like if this were easy to talk about, it'd be one of those things we'd all be pretty awake because we were just in school. We'd be like, OK, so here's the thing, right? Do these three things yourself drops away. You see truth as it is. If only and yeah. Yeah. OK, I'm unsure. I know that there's the claim of of what one cannot speak of specifically. One must be silent. That's Wittgenstein's. And it's also true that it could be that our level of language is not"
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"text": " I completely understand. At some point, if you just read the dictionary, it only refers to other words. So in a sense, almost every concept needs what's extra linguistic, because you can't talk about what's bumpy, let's say, by reading the dictionary. You have to point to what's bumpy, experience it, attach the label of bumpiness. So maybe because these states are so rare for the majority of people, attaching a name is extremely difficult."
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"text": " If not impossible. I don't know if it's impossible, but I understand that it's difficult You know what's interesting in your again in your documentary going back to this because I think because let's see this is important How do we we started off talking about? How are we gonna? How's the world gonna emerge better? systems if we don't Actually understand ourselves. Well, you know your theories of everything are Crucial, but they have to include the internal universe of human experience. I think"
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"text": " That's my opinion. And, and the question is, how do we develop ways to point to these truths from people who've had those are operating from that position. So they're operating from that present moment sort of experience. And I've met a couple people who are who do that. And just talking to them can evoke the state. And, and I interviewed one of them, Angelo de Lulo, who's an anesthesiologist"
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"text": " He had an awakening in 97. Since then, he's further 97. So he's my age. He's 48. This is crazy. Talk about jealousy, dude. Talk about jealousy. I was like, screw you, buddy. But the reason he had an awakening is he suffered. He was suffering so much internally with all the just angst and existential dread. At 97, he was suffering? In 1997. Oh, 1997. Not at the age of 97. Sorry."
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"text": " No, no, no. He's my age. But it was back in 97. And he never, he had this experience where the self dissolved, he was pure emptiness, like the substratum that the universe appears from, from nothing. The idea of Buddhist emptiness doesn't even even kind of touch what he had experienced, he told me. And this, this then he never spoke of to anyone because he found he couldn't say a word about it. And it took him 20 years of"
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"text": " Okay, do you believe that? The reason why I say that is because what you've just described has almost nothing to do with science. In fact, it seems anti-science to go to one's experience, the subjective rather than the objective. So what's the deal with that cup? When was that cup made? Was that before this three-day spa with this person? Nope, it's yes and."
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"text": " a deep adherent of this as a physician and as someone who advocates science-based medicine and so on. But that is a yes and. So even transrational thought, it's not thought, this experience of like, well, okay, so what's the substratum then that even encompasses science? And that's what I'm pointing out with what I'm saying. But science is still absolutely valid at that relative level of existence, which is what matters to most humans because"
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"text": " science would just say if then statement so if you give this person this will happen if this if this if this if this you then have to select between them which is it's a moral hierarchy it's an ethic and i don't see that as incorporated into science per se so please let me hear your thoughts on that man i love this is the kind of shit like i just love just because it's what i call"
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"text": " You call it science 2.0, right? No, I hate it. I mean, I say I hate calling, I call it abiogenesis, which is, I can't even pronounce it. That's better. That's kind of awesome. Thank you. Thank you. It's worse. I geek out and call it like health 3.0, which is this idea that it's, the science is there, we're evidence empowered, but then you have this relationship with a patient that has these currently intangible, because we don't have"
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"text": " Inter subjective ways to measure these things easily you have that relationship and that hope streams and fears of the patient that if you know it and you form a therapeutic alliance which emerges some state that we don't understand that we call the mind-body connection because we were you know basically monkeys flapping our meat holes what do you mean when you say therapeutic alliance what do you mean explain that please so a therapeutic alliance everybody a lot of people have had this experience where look I'm having this suffering I'm having this issue I'm having this"
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"text": " And anyone who's practiced medicine knows this to be true. Anyone who's been a patient and has experienced it, they may not know it because they may still have this expectation. Well, but he also gave me an aspirin or gave me an antibiotic and I got better or maybe they gave me an antidepressant. What they will not, and this is why if you read reviews of docs online, what they do doesn't matter. It's how they did it. That's fascinating. It has to do with also complaints. Doctors who people dislike get complained against at a far"
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"text": " the longer term consequence was a relief of suffering and a changing of behavior and so on. So it's really, it's really tough to say what he would do, but I think that that that's kind of how I think about it. And again, I, you know, nobody's, I think our, our humanness, our ego mind interposes. And I want to read one comment here in the thread on Facebook, Laura Ann Hartman says spiritual bypasses are toxic. Familiar with that term Kurt, spiritual bypass. Okay. So this is what that means. And it points to this."
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"text": " It was awesome to watch, man. It was really, really, really compelling. I think it comes from personal humiliation. I've been humiliated by these, like you mentioned. You used to be a staunch atheist materialist for let's say 15 years at least. So same with me. I'm not saying that I'm not that, but I'm sorry. I'm not that, but I'm not the opposite."
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"text": " and there's so many experiences in my life where I thought for sure this is the case and then it's not and it's come to the point where now the more I trust my own instincts the more I see actually I have questions every single and everywhere so here's an example that's near and dear to you with regard to the whole issue of societal mistrust of science I understand it"
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"text": " I see that, like, I understand it on one level. There's some, there's some amount of following that has to occur, because not everyone can do their own research. So some, and society is based on trust. But then at the same time, for some tenants, bruided by the institutions, let's say, and I'm not using, I'm not, that's not square quotes, I'm just quoting."
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"text": " Trust of Science, but then if a scientific article came out saying, oh, it turns out that the COVID vaccines were horrible, you'd see the anti-vaxxers jump on that and say, yes, you see, but I thought you mistrusted science. Why don't you mistrust that as well? Like, you should be doubting everywhere. So for me, I'm doubting everywhere. And even my brother, who is a professor of statistics, math, technically of finance, statistical finance,"
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"text": " You peel away and you realize there's something more dark underneath. Man, what you just unleashed is the Pandora's box. That's kind of the central premise of our platform during the pandemic, which is you do have to question everything. You do. At the same time, it's balancing with relying on expertise that you don't have to parse data that you can't parse because either you don't have the time because it's impossible to do it all."
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"text": " Okay, forget about politics and all that. This is about opening your mind to different ideas without judging people who hold opposing ideas as evil. So in other words, hearing everything, seeing everything as maybe having some truth but being partial, and then assuming good intent and having discourse. Well, heaven forbid that there's nothing in social media that rewards that, with the exception of"
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"text": " Andrew Dunbar says, I dozed off shortly after ZDogg introduced the guest. I woke up about 10 minutes ago with no clue what was going on and thought, yes, yes, this is what happens when a society legalizes marijuana."
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"text": " I don't know if you're talking about you, Andrew, having smoked a little too much, or us, either way. So back to this middle idea. And thank you for the support, Andrew. You can create environments, you can model environments where the pursuit of knowledge, understanding, being civil to each other, that sort of thing, actually is the default. So I was recently on the Rebel Wisdom podcast with David Fuller, and we talked about this."
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"text": " trying to find sense. One of your big concerns is how do you make sense? How do you make sense when the epistemic commons like our common knowledge sources are gone? There's no more Walter Cronkite. There's no more single source of truth. It's now a bunch of fragments each with their own ideology that it's all about signaling. Like you said, oh, as an intellectual, I don't even want to be perceived as anti intellectual. Half the shit I told you on this thing"
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"text": " I would never have said three years ago because I would have been vilified by like a David Gorski or someone as full of woo, anti-scientific. You know what I'm talking about? So I think this is a fundamental question and I do think it's going to emerge. I think we have to, those on the leading edge of it, which is like our audience, like your audience, my audience, they think like this. So let's encourage it."
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"text": " I've gotten to the point now where I never used to like censor comments on my threads. But what I'm finding is when people behave in ways that are anti alt middle, so they're throwing ad hominems, they're being very overtly politically idiotic. It's like, oh, you're a Trump supporter because of this, or you're a radical leftist because of this. That's why I loved your documentary, by the way, because you dive into that shit in a deep way, which was beautiful. Thank you. I've started going in now."
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"text": " and deleting blocking the people who make those comments because what they're there to do is to signal to their tribe. They're not there to advance conversation. And then what I noticed is so then you get all kinds of complaints. Oh, you're you're stifling free speech. It's not free speech. This is the community I'm trying to create. You can come here and this is our value is alt middle. So if you behave in that way, you can disagree with me. In fact, I want you to. But I want you to do it in a way that assumes I'm not I'm not acting in bad faith and you're not acting in bad faith."
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"text": " I'm of the mind, I don't delete a single comment. Some people think I do, but YouTube's algorithm actually filters out quite a few. It does, yeah. And people think I'm actively deleting, I'm not. So my disincentive system is I read each comment, I heart them, but if they're negative toward the guest, I don't heart them. So they can be negative toward me, they can be negative toward the guest's theories, but not ad hominins at the guest, and then that's the only time I don't heart them, but I don't delete."
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"text": " I actually like what you're doing. You have to do that. That's only because the guest is like, the guest, this is, I, they're in my home right there. So I'm not going to have, invite them in and have them insulted people. Totally. I'm with you. So that's how I used to be. I would only block people who were being absolutely vicious to my guests because it is, it's like someone comes a guest in my home and someone comes and throws feces at them. It's like, no, that's not okay. They're in my house."
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"text": " Is that good for like building an alt middle mindset? No, I don't like snarky comments either or people who ask questions but they are asking it from an antagonistic point of view where they just want to Well, technically it's called trolling or make baits. I Have a discord and so there's moderation there, but not by me because I cannot take part in the moderation I I don't want to censor because I don't I know you mentioned the term good faith and good intentions. I actually"
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"text": " Now I used to just let it all go because also I didn't have the capacity, right? So it's just, but my assistant helps me now and we have these sort of rules of how to do it. But because Facebook got to the point where my audience was asking me to moderate comments because it was just full of just the worst conspiracy stuff, just discounting anything I said based on I'm paid off by some pharma thing, which by the way, that's all public information. I'm a physician, the Sunshine Act"
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"text": " I think this is a terrible idea. We shouldn't be doing mass vaccination during a pandemic. Here are the reasons why. We're going to generate mutant strains that are resistant to the vaccines, but that the immune memory is going to prevent us from being able to fix that even with boosters and so on. So it sounds very compelling. You dig into it and you see, okay, there's some flaws here in the thinking. Actually, some of the science isn't quite right. And oh, he's actually got his own thing that he's trying to develop."
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"text": " What we should do, now here's the problem though. So how do you make sense in a world like this? And this is something David and I talked about, David Fuller, because even my argument to you like, well, I don't want to do a thing with Gert Von den Busch because first of all, I'm not a virologist. We need a virologist. Second of all, there's this idea of false equivalence whereby highlighting a platform that you firmly think is wrong and harmful potentially, you're giving it more credence."
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"text": " And I look like shit at baseline, so having a nice camera and lighting. By the way, I gotta say this about your documentary, better left unsaid. Your suit that you wore in that, it was tailored like- Oh wow, thanks. It was- Guess what? It was not tailored, it was off the rack. Yeah, that was a coincidence."
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"text": " Tim Davis says, I wake up almost every night at 3 a.m., did an experiment with glucose monitor, noticed my glucose levels were crashing at every time every night. Diet at the right time resolved it, now it's only occasional. So Tim was talking about like his waking up in the middle of the night of anxiety was due to a physiological cause. Sorry, is it okay if I tell you a bit about my sleep quickly? Yeah, please do. So I've been fasting for the past some 74 hours or so into a fast."
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"text": " The idea that there's a lot of things in, you know, in a 72 hour, let me see. So, you know, we're going to three days of that, you know, human body is pretty resilient. You can do that, but there will be these. Well, I'm about to eat, man. After this, I told you I'm going to go into bliss. I am going to eat. I know that I shouldn't do that after a long fast, but that's how I operate. Dude, that's how that's how we evolved. It's like nothing happens. I'm wondering, is this good for me or is bad for me going through it? It's somewhat like intermittent fasting, like a drastic fast overeat, drastic fast. I imagine that."
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"text": " I myself do one meal a day as my sort of feeding window thing and that's the only way at 48 I keep from becoming morbidly obese because I love food so much. I am this exact same way one meal a day almost every single day because I cannot help my I am avaricious. I'm voracious. I'm rapacious You're using some big words that I don't understand and I'm gonna take that as a personal insult. All right"
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"text": " But I will say this, I'm a fat ass if left to my own devices. I will, you're exactly, and by the way, when in your, in your, in your documentary, when you showed your mom's cooking, I was like, Oh God, my parents are, are Parsi from Pune, India. And my mom, same thing, just the, I just, I could eat that all day and be like 500 pounds. Um, and so, so your sleep and your fasting, they do interact. And some of it is the fact, how often do you do the fasts?"
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"text": " Once a week, I'll fast for 48 hours. This one is 72 hours, but once a week about 48 hours. And then eat one meal a day. So anyone who's like, oh, you fast and your brain gets foggy. I mean, you started out foggy because you were tired and you've done a bunch of podcasts. But then, man, once you woke up, it was like, oh, shit. So whatever ketones you're burning now are affecting your brain. You energize me, man. You energize me. You take all the credit belongs to you. Trust me, because I've been speaking to a couple of people today, and you should have seen me just"
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"text": " Because how much of my fasting is also self-sabotage? So one, because I'm vain and I want to keep thin. Two, because I'm filled with velocity and I want to eat. Three, because it's okay that I fail because I'm fasting and so therefore, therefore if I'm not up to par, I have an excuse. So that's not consciously there, but if I examine myself, I can imagine that that lurks just thinly veiled underneath."
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"text": " Brother, it's like we're cut from the same cloth, man. So the reason I never prep for interviews very much"
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"text": " is partially so I have plausible deniability when it sucks. I'm like, well, you know, I just winged it. I, you know, I didn't really do anything. So yeah, I mean, next time if I, if I did something, it would have kicked ass. The mind and a lot of it's unconscious. You can bring it into consciousness and you shine a light on it. But, you know, I got to say, and now the only thing I'd say is that maybe research a little bit on your electrolyte situation. Is there something you can do within that fast? I'll try that."
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"text": " Yeah, you know, especially potassium and sodium are often wasted early on in a fast as you switch from burning carbs to burning fat and going to ketosis. There's a diuretic effect where you do lose a lot of that. So a lot of times people talk about the keto flu when you're first going into ketosis. This idea that people feel really kind of crummy may be partially due to that aspect of it. Like Atiya and others have recommended"
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"text": " Someone mentioned THC. I'm wondering about dabbling in some of that. That also helps me sleep. THC helps tremendously, but apparently"
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"text": " THC while it reduces the sleep lag, like the time it takes to get to sleep, it disrupts your sleep cycle, but CBD doesn't contribute to sleep lag, but it helps your sleep cycle. Yeah, I've heard exactly that and I've experienced that with THC, that you go to sleep fine and then you wake up with this, you know, kind of dysphoric sense in the middle of the night a few times, at least I do. For me, I wake up in a bed of"
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"text": " Isn't it fascinating how our perception is so malleable?"
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"text": " Let me read a comment real quick while we're doing this. I wake up with the munchies says Jamie Vance. There it is. Lizette Paris is a supporter says, Oh, I feel like Indian food right now. Right. So do I. We're getting Korean food tonight. After the show, I'm going with my family. We're gonna go to"
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"text": " foster city and get some dope Korean food. On Facebook, Samantha Espionage says, I'm very open minded and will listen to the beliefs of others even if they contradict my own. I take both into consideration and if the opposing belief seems more logical than my own, then I'm not afraid to allow myself to adopt them. So that's what you consciously think, Samantha, that you're already ahead of most people. I would advise you to even look unconsciously and go, what part of me is resisting this? What part of me is triggered by this? What part of me won't let go or"
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"text": " the malleability of my own beliefs and it may be that you're you've already done that right which is wonderful but many of us haven't you know my unconscious is very resistant to a lot of things and i have to bring that resistance into conscious awareness you know shine a light on it you know they say like sunlight's the best disinfectant it's the same with consciousness making something that's automatic something that's now aware is is a huge asset so what were we talking about brother we were talking about um perception yeah so"
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"text": " The one interesting insight I've had that may not be an insight. So I rarely ever use THC anymore. When I was younger, it was a different subject. But now, occasionally, I'll do it as an experiment into consciousness. Like, what does this do? I'm not a fan of recreational drug use. It has to be for a particular purpose, like insight into reality or to help you sleep or whatever. Therapeutic."
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"text": " Yeah, some kind of investigational purpose now, right? When I was young, it was recreational and that was not a good idea. So what I noticed with that is, you know, if Hoffman talks about our perceptual interface, his interface theory, which is we have a species-specific way of seeing the social network of consciousness around us, and it's evolved to allow us to reproduce. It's fitness payoffs. It's not seeing truth."
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"text": " Well, what drugs do, like THC, like LSD, whatever, is they take that evolved interface and they shift it. So LSD may really just blow it out. Right. It's what you're saying that what we see on LSD may be partially what reality is truly like or distorted version. No, what I would argue is Hoffman's argument, which is reality is simply consciousness interacting with itself and we see it"
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"text": " in a constructed way that benefits us as a species to reproduce. So we construct it in a way that allows us to get food and have mates. Now what the drugs do is you don't see more reality or whatever. What you do is you see that same reality, the objective reality, which is this conscious agent network happening, manifesting, but you see it with a different interface. You might see it with an interface that"
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"text": " would be evolutionarily advantageous if X, Y, and Z. So what I find with THC, this is what I think is fascinating. You'll talk to those people, right, who are, and there's a lot of variation in our own interfaces, people with synesthesia who, you know, hear sounds or see sounds, things like that, or Hoffman gives the example of the chef who, whenever he tastes mint, he feels in his hand a cool column of glass."
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"text": " Those are mutations in our interface. They're changes in our interface that at some point may become evolutionary advantageous. And we select for them. So what I think is with THC, there are those people who are like, bro, I just am so anxious at baseline. I can't sleep at baseline. I'm a total asshole. Like Joe Rogan will say this. I'm a complete asshole at baseline. I smoke some weed and I'm just a different person. I'm better. I'm calmer. I sleep better. I could do this all day every day and still function perfectly. What I suspect with them is,"
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"text": " Unbelievable. But with that comes a sensitivity to thought and a self referential aspect that makes me very unhappy. Like I see myself from outside as this horrible, just evil, nasty thing and it's crippling. So it's a shift in our perception, a little frame shift and the dose tells you how far you shift and the kind tells you what you shift into. So if it's like LSD or THC or that's my theory. Now again, how do I prove it? Can't."
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"text": " Yeah. Yeah. What have we not touched on? Was there something we were supposed to? There's a universe of things that we'll just have to do a follow-up. Yeah, we definitely will. You know, we were gonna, medicine and all that, that's a whole nother conversation. We talked about a lot of things. Okay, I have one question. I wrote it. Okay, someone said, I heard him talk on trigonometry recently, which I don't think is true. Were you on trigonometry? No, actually I wasn't. I saw that coming. Yeah, I don't think so. Perhaps they meant rebel wisdom."
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"text": " Okay, excellent. He spoke of the problem of changing his opinion based on new information. Now see, we talked about grandstanding before. I think there's rational, it's almost like virtue signaling, there's rational signaling. I don't believe people when they say, I changed my mind based on new information. The reason why is that it's extremely hard to change your mind."
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"text": " Not only that, but would you change your mind based on any new information? Are you saying that you have no other value system embedded? So for example, if the world told you through some truth mechanism that you should kill your wife or kill your dog, are you telling me that you're going to override your beliefs to follow what's rational? Is rationality the god? Why should you follow that if it leads you to destruction? So I saw that and I thought about"
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"text": " I don't believe people and I saw this Veritasium video once not to pick on Veritasium but Veritasium was in a university crowd holding the camera to himself and someone was saying how is it that you change your mind when you are presented with new beliefs and he's like well you know these beliefs you just you get new information you update them you just slot it in even though you don't like and I'm like you're so pretentious man firstly you don't think like that secondly it's not that easy thirdly maybe you shouldn't because well"
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"text": " You don't know where rationality alone will lead you. Rationality is like an arrow with no direction. You have to direct it, and that direction process isn't exactly rational. It's like pre-rational. Those were my thoughts, and I wanted to know what you thought about that. Dude, so how big of a Jonathan Haidt understanding do you have? Not much. Other than Big Five and political belief, that's it."
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"text": " Right, right, right, right, right. Talking about the big five, the moral pallet, you know, fairness versus cheating authority versus subversion, etc. So his other big analogy, which I think speaks exactly what you're saying, is this. So, and I keep this here because I want to be reminded of it. The elephant and the rider. I'm surprised I'm a monkey on the elephant. Right? That would be better. It's just someone, one of my supporters sent me this and so I use it as an example. So thank you,"
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"text": " Patricia, I think, sent me this. So the elephant is our primitive emotional mind, what Daniel Kahneman would call system one. So it works on heuristics, emotion, feeling, intuition. Is that fast? Instant fast, yes. It's the fast system, exactly. So it happens, we share it with a lot of animals, it's highly conservative evolutionarily, ancient brain."
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"text": " It works to make these snap judgments. It holds our deepest sort of biases and beliefs. It's partially genetic, it's partially conditioned, but it is what it is. And it's the thing when I say, oh, we've made a decision, you know, six seconds before we're aware of it. Often that's our elephant just making that decision unconsciously and feeding it up to this guy who is the rider of the elephant. That's our neocortex. So rational thought, math, moral reasoning,"
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"text": " Persuasion verbally, those kinds of things. The rider seems to be something reasonably unique to higher mammals. Probably self-referential thought occurs in that. It's slower, it's more deliberate, it takes more ATP to make it happen."
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"text": " And the theory was, oh, we evolved the rider to control the elephant so that, you know, our rational thought overrides emotion. But look at the size differential. Like, who's really in charge? So, Haidt argues that the data actually shows that he's reviewed that the rider is not the president in this little consortium. It's the elephant's press secretary. Have you heard Ilmi Gokras, master in its emissary?"
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"text": " A little bit. And I saw that you'd interviewed him. That was the next thing on my list to watch. So I'm sure he kind of talks about this too. Same thing. All these roads converge because I think they're pointing at some truth. And the idea is that it's a press secretary because the elephant emotionally, belief-wise, has already decided. It then needs this rider to persuade others in the tribe that we're right, because our life depends on it. Hunting rights, breeding rights, food rights in a tribe of 100 people. Yeah, so evolutionarily,"
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"text": " this writer evolved as a persuasive tool. Well, now you weaponize that through social media, where everyone's got their elephant, they now have a like button to say my elephant agrees, and a comment field to go, here's what my writer thinks of that, a dislike button to say or an angry button to say my elephant disagrees and a comment field to attack. And none of it goes to how do I change my mind in the face of new data? Right? So when I say I've changed my mind, like for masks,"
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"text": " elephant response on mass early on was, I'm a doctor. This is bullshit. Like having the public wear a diaper on their face is dumb. It's not going to do anything because people don't use it correctly. They're going to touch their face. At that time, I thought this was also fomitically transmitted, meaning a lot on surfaces has been disproven. So I was telling people in videos, listen,"
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"text": " We don't have data that shows that masks work. That's the problem. We don't. We have certain suggestions that it reduces the inoculum of the virus so that even a dumb diaper on your face is going to reduce the sheer number of viral particles. So you may then turn a ICU case into a asymptomatic case because there's some data to suggest that viral inoculum, especially in other diseases, matters for severity of illness. And so then I said, OK, this is different now. So now anything on your face might reduce"
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"text": " Like wait, CDC is saying it's not a big deal. WHO is not calling this a pandemic. The Chinese government scientists are saying, okay, we like what they're doing here. They caught this early. So I did a video where it's like, guys, this is what could happen. I don't think it is because the Chinese have got this under control. It's a stupid. It's still available. I don't delete videos."
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"text": " But it still hurts. It still hurts our belief structure. Like if you told me tomorrow, man, this vaccine that I've been talking about publicly is harming people, making them infertile, doing all this other stuff. Now we have data, it's incontrovertible, or as close to incontrovertible as we can. I would want to die. It would feel so horrible because my belief structure is, no, actually I've looked at this data, I've used all my tools of belief and science on it, and I'm very convinced that this is safe. Something crazy has happened."
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"text": " Okay, the first thing is do is got to do a video and say, I was wrong about this. And that's going to hurt, like it's going to be the worst. But you have to, you have to accept that level of pain. And but I think you're right. I think it's very easy to virtue signal, I changed my mind, look at me, I'm a better human, and really not be changing your mind at all. In fact, if anything, your fundamental belief is I go wherever the popular wisdom is, or whatever will get me views. And you haven't changed that belief at all. So by changing this belief, you're just going with that flow. And that's something you have to be very"
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"text": " It's a reason why I'm not a great interviewee, despite the fact that we've been speaking for quite some time, because I don't have any staunched beliefs, at least not that I'm conscious of. As soon as I put up a proposition, I can see its flaws. And I also guide myself or try to by this, I think it's Arthur Kane who said, only the shallowest of minds can believe that in"
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"text": " great controversy one side is mere folly so when it comes to anti-lockdown or anti-masks if there's a large enough amount of people saying it I want to hear what is your best argument and perhaps you're not art perhaps what you're saying is false but the meaning behind it is correct and you're not articulate enough to put it forward so for example I I find it strange that the"
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"text": " COVID is such an anomaly, man, for many reasons. I find it strange that it's the right that's anti-lockdown, when the left should be about liberties. And I also find it strange that the left is for universally pro-abortion and the right is anti-abortion, when it doesn't seem to map on exactly. And the reason why is, think of Jainism. Jainism"
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"text": " The 35 tenants of the right and the 45 of the left, or whatever it may be, are ones that you align with. You're you. It's a difficult game to attach yourself to a team. You said you're not a good interviewee. I'm partially not a good interviewer. No, no, no, no. So forget about that. My producer Logan"
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"text": " In my tribe of people, we have a lot of conservatives, a lot of libertarians, a lot of liberals, a couple of Marxists, not a lot of very far-right people, but people that are very libertarian. And they all, we talk about it in terms of Jonathan Haidt's moral taste buds. So when you think about abortion, et cetera, by the way, remind me to tell you if we have time about the video I did about abortion, that, boy, you can see how that triggers the tribal behavior of in-group out-group."
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"text": " So long story short, you have these taste buds, liberty versus oppression that you value, fairness versus cheating, loyalty versus betrayal, authority versus subversion, care versus harm. So in other words, you know, care versus self-explanatory. And the sixth one actually is, because there's a little subtlety there, is sanctity versus degradation. This is from Jonathan Haidt."
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"text": " Jonathan Haidt, in his book, The Righteous Mind, he lays out why good people disagree on politics and religion. And what's interesting is each of these issues can be filtered through your moral palette that you're often born with, like you have these certain values. So liberty versus oppression. So it turns out liberals tend to really emphasize, they all have all six, but they emphasize two, which is fairness versus cheating, and care versus"
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"text": " And the right has a similar kind of set of doctrines. So when you ask the question, I don't understand why the right does this and that. Some of that is ideological possession. Some of that is they do tend to value these more. There's something in veteran. Something. Yeah, exactly. And then there was a Oh, so the abortion piece that I did. So I did like one of those direct to camera things. It was when Alabama's state legislature was, you know, intervening in abortion in some way, that a lot of physicians were saying, you know, this is a bunch of men can't"
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"text": " I did a video where I said, hey, I agree with that. This is a medical procedure. This is how it's done. It should be the right of women to make the choice with their doctor and with whatever religious belief they have, etc. It shouldn't be a legislator doing this, in my opinion, and this is the thing. But let me tell you a story about why I understand"
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"text": " So I got a ton of messages from people saying, that's the most cogent I've ever heard. That's how I feel as a doctor who performs abortions. But then I got hate from a lot of abortion doctors and a lot of very lefty lefters who are like, you're basically normalizing violence against abortion clinics by giving any nuance. Right, right, I know."
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"text": " And I was like, I felt attracted, like attacked by this tribe of healthcare professionals. I was like, oh my God, but I didn't remove it. In fact, I did another video where I talked about it more, but man, it's rough, right? The moral pallet. They want, they dislike the other side so intensely that with your nuance, there's a part of your argument that can be used on the side that they dislike. And so they want to discount the argument entirely. Yeah. Yeah. False equivalence again, bears its ugly head."
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"text": " man Kurt are you pooped or what bro? I'm looking forward to being that and going to sleep at some point and eating so let's wrap it up yeah yeah thank you so much man dude this was uh this was a real joy yeah yeah me too me too I wasn't expecting to go on for more than an hour and it's been two and almost almost three I'm so sorry I know you're starving and you're tired and please I wanted to hear what you have to say"
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"text": " Tell your wife I'm deeply sorry and that my wife hates me just as much, because I do the same thing. So at least we have that kind of true equivalency. So thank you so much. Do the same thing as what is going on over Extended? Yeah. Come home, you know, we have plans and I'm like, but just a couple more minutes, I'm doing a show or whatever it is. So it is what it is. Brother, it's just a joy. Hopefully we can do this again at some point in the future if you feel inclined."
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"text": " Just let me know and we'll make it happen. We've never done a live format like this with Zoom. Oh, great. I'm honored to be the first. Oh, man. It's really awesome to have you. You're the perfect guest for this. Not a guest, it's a conversation. So thank you. Thank you. And we'll connect very soon. And to everybody who's watching, thanks again to Kurt. Check out his stuff. So his podcast, his show on YouTube is called Theories of Everything. I've put links in."
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"text": " His documentary is called Better Left Unsaid and it's a ride. It is a ride. Is the director's cut available publicly? On betterleftunsaidfilm.com exclusively. So if you get it from iTunes or Google or Voodoo, firstly, much of the money or some of the money goes toward them. Whereas from the website, most, if not all the money, go toward the filmmakers. There's some split between different places, but you also on the website get access to the director's cut, I believe for free."
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"text": " If you just buy the regular version and you don't get access to the director's cut, find my email, it's online somewhere, and email me and I'll send you the link. Just send me your receipt. That's awesome. And you funded this thing with Kickstarter, Indiegogo stuff, that sort of thing? Yeah. That's great. And it's personal money. It's really well done, you guys. So if you want to dive into the craziness that's going on in society in a way that's so unique, watch the director's cut."
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"text": " really watch the director's cut if you're into this because it is it goes really deep it's a it's brilliant so thank you so much guys and until next time i'm going to figure out how to stop this kurt you can sign off you are the bomb i also want to make a quick amendment it's when i said personal money my brother invested heavily into the film so i just want to make sure that that said i don't want to misrepresent so thank you family"
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"text": " Family and you are identical as far as I'm concerned. That's how I see it So yeah, thanks for making the clarification, but that's awesome. It's really wonderful to have support, right? There's a deep gratitude that arises from that Like I might supporters on Facebook and stuff that pay for all this equipment on YouTube and locals. They're the best They got some great equipment. Okay, man. I gotta get going. Thank you I'll sign off and you can speak to the audience if you like"
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"text": " I'll wrap it up, Kurt. Thank you. Guys for the recording. Is it all right if I just talk to you quickly about that? You'll send me it to Dropbox. I will send you a Dropbox version of this very long file that we'll export over the next two hours and then I'll send you a link and then you can put it together however you like. Great. Thank you. I love it, brother. Thanks. Have a great one, man. It's been a pleasure. I appreciate it. Thank you, man. Likewise. Guys. That was intense. We've been talking for almost three hours. That's crazy."
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"text": " Wow. So, you know, we started out kind of slow and got in the groove as he's been really sleep deprived and doing podcast after podcast. Let's take a few comments right now, just because I want to wrap up with your voice, because I think that's important. And we didn't get enough of that in the thing because we were so into ourselves. Thank you, Anne, for your support on YouTube and Andrew Dunbar. Actually, Andrew Dunbar says the sanctity versus degradation dichotomy also applies to how some on the right view gun rights. Totally true."
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"text": " If you don't understand how someone who holds opposing views sees the world morally, you don't understand them at all. And you're going to vilify them because you're going to see them through your own moral matrix, which is not how they see the world. And you need to understand that our moral matrix allows us to do what we perceive is good in the world. We filter it through that. So everybody, most people are trying to be good"
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"text": " which is why you can assume good intent. It used to be I would get very triggered by people with different political views and I would assume them they were just bad because I was using my moral matrix, my moral taste buds as the litmus test or the filter. Now I get excited to hear opposing views because I want to know what the moral matrix is it's coming from and honor it. You go, oh God, you're trying to be good and this is how you see being good. Okay, I can't be mad at you. I disagree for these reasons, but let's have a conversation. What do we agree on?"
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"text": " morally, what do we agree on we want to see in the world, right? And then you can start from a consensus, sort of common human, common humanity, politics, instead of this identity, where we're all separate fighting each other as tribes. That's really what a lot of identity politics that used to be a great thing in the civil rights movement has devolved into this, our group existential battle against everybody else that's a power struggle trying to oppress us. Well, what if we just assume good intent and try our best instead of vilifying other people because of the way they're born?"
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"text": " Right. Born white or born Asian or born whatever. Like forget that dude. That's horseshit. That's the definition of discrimination. June Black says, I felt so bad for him being so tired at the beginning. Glad he came around. Yeah, dude. I really hang on a second. I just, there we go. I'm still recording. That's good. I felt really bad for him. And I felt like what, you know, we were scheduled to do this and"
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"text": " I was like, am I torturing this guy? Cause you know, we didn't even know what we were going to talk about. We had no agenda. You know, we connected via email and, and, uh, I was worried that it was just going to go off the rails real fast. And, uh, it didn't, it went on the rails, which was off the rails. So it was a lot of fun for me. Yeah. It was intense. Right. Jonna. Um, George Shepherd, my fulcrum is different, uh, from so-and-so's fulcrum. That's a good way to look at it. Like, right."
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"text": " Where's your fulcrum? That's great. Ashley Stewart, I feel the exact same way. I never learned from people who think exactly like I do. You can't. It's just a kind of group think. Jamie Vance, how do you break through to people who allow their moral compass to dictate a conversation? I struggle greatly with helping people see that everything is true but partial. So that idea of alt middle that everything's true but partial is a kind of moral assertion. It's a kind of meta belief about belief. So I think"
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"text": " I think accepting that person as they are is one thing. This is how they're showing up. It's the best they can do at this point. And then gently, this is very hard, gently nudging through conversation some ideas that might open them up a little to, first of all, maximizing whatever level they're at in terms of their thinking, and then opening them to whatever that adjacent level is. And I see it happen again and again. I see it. It's not impossible."
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"text": " It's not that we change our minds, it's that our minds grow. They transcend and include what came before to use Ken Wilber's language. You know, it's a beautiful thing. Oh, how kind of you. Theories of everything. Kurt Jaimengal commented. Thank you, Zubin. Can't hear you, but typing to say thank you. Kurt, you're the best, man. What's Kurt's full name? Kurt Jaimengal. And it's in the description for the video, Dorothy Morrison. Afterwards, you can see it there."
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"text": " J-A-I-M-U-N-G-A-L. He's awesome, really. I love people who think like that and who are self-reflective and very, very intellectual, but able to also relax into a kind of beyond intellectualism. It's really key. Sophia on YouTube says, the ego has a lot of power, always reasserting"
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"text": " Through and into survival mechanisms. So Sophie, let's think about ego for a second I don't know why I'm still talking but talking for three hours and I got to be somewhere but I'm into this now. It's a kind of a flow state. Oh My neck's gonna hurt tomorrow. Um We tend so in spiritual circles in particular in meditation circles and those kind of circles that look at this stuff"
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"text": " The ego tends to be objectified as something that's there. It's like this entity that we need to fight or we need to overcome or that's doing these bad things to us or so on. And I think when you approach it from that angle, I'm not saying you're doing this. I'm just saying, I'm speaking, just expositing on this. When we approach ego from that angle, we turn it into an object. What's the only thing that can turn other things into objects? Ego. So my friend Angelo says, when you go to war with the ego,"
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"text": " It's the ego going to war with itself. It's a very subtle, it's a pattern of conditioned thoughts, beliefs, and perceptual distortions that are just happening, just like everything else is just happening. It's just happening. And what happens is it binds attention so that we think this is it. And the ego knows us better than we know ourselves. It's had millions of years to evolve with us."
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"text": " It knows our deepest, darkest thoughts and knows how to manipulate us. Now, again, I'm objectifying it, but let's just say that pattern of energy is really good at tricking attention into following thoughts about self and so on. Creating the sense of self, this person behind my eyes that's seeing objects around me as separate, instead of just everything as one thing, as Kurt called it, one vellum, one substrata, one thing."
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"text": " One reality and the home by the way, Jody Jacobs on Facebook says, I stayed the full three hours because I love this conversation. Thank you both. Jody, that makes me so, Oh, I just love that. I love that. That really warms me up my ego, but even beyond ego, there's something like there's something in our authentic bits, right?"
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"text": " that when you connect with another person, like we connected during this conversation, you and I and Kurt and all that, it's just a sense of just elevation like, oh, that's beautiful. That's humanity at its most connected, right? Even if we don't agree on everything. Yeah, Jose, check out his movie. So his movie is crazy. It's like real experimental and weird and"
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"text": " It doesn't seem like it's all going to come together. And then at the end, it's kind of like, what? So you got, you got to check it out. It's some crazy shit. Um, all right. Now I probably, I probably should go because I can hear this box trying to record and it's probably running out of space. Hold on. Yeah, it's crazy. It's still actually recording. I don't know. I didn't know it had that much space on that card. Um, Kajido ergo ego. That's right."
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"text": " George Shepard, I think therefore I am ego. Ego itself is a friend. It's a pattern of energy that's kept us alive. Its goal is to protect us from a seeming external world. It understands that we're separate, and it says, okay, as a separate thing, this is how we stay safe. It doesn't know better. It can't know better. It's not a thing. This pattern of energy, we should honor it. We should thank it."
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"text": " We should be grateful for it, but we should recognize it for what it is. We should recognize when it's trying to co-opt and turn everything into a story. You know, the story of the one who woke up, the story of the one who meditates, the story of the one who's embarking on a spiritual journey, whatever it is. So anyways, Jean Black, it was three hours, didn't seem like it. Man, I can't believe you guys are with"
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"text": " With us this long Ashley, same thing. You guys are crazy. I do need to hydrate Sandra. Thank you. I'm tired. Samantha, man, you guys are great. You guys are the core audience because there was like, you know, about a hundred and some on each platform the whole time. You guys are really the core hardcore devotees. And I I'm so grateful for you. All right. I got to stop doing this. It's an affectation, but I love it. When I went to Thailand when I was younger,"
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"text": " This was a very Buddhist society and everybody would just do this. And I got in the habit of that. And it's a kind of a, I see you as me and a gratitude thing at the same time. It's really lovely. All right. I'd rather do it than shake hands, honestly. All right. I love you guys. Now I got to figure out how to end this. I'm going to say bye to YouTube first. So bye bye, YouTube. Till next time. And then"
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